angelbaby70

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Yesterday was a really hard day for me, the liquid diet has really been difficult. But, I made it thru the day thank GOD!

I am going to start packing my bag for the hospital tonight, it feels kind of unreal at the moment but I know it is coming faster than I think :)

Have read so many positive things on this site that I am super excited and ready to start my new life, I am ready to fight my battle!

Starting to have a little more trouble with all liquids, wishing it was already Monday so this can be moving forward. But, the good news is I have lost another 8 pounds.........woohoo!

I have been looking at before and after pics for days now, really they are what have kept me from backing out. I have been through the crying and worring if I am doing the right thing, then I go through the knowing I am making the right choice. lol
What an emotional roller coaster!

I see all the pics of people that are heavy and look so unhappy, and I know how that feels. You dread the thought of looking at your real self, not sure if everyone does this but in my mind I have a picture of myself that is not real. Heavy but not FAT, like I really am............... Does that make me crazy?  Then I run my mouse of the pics and see the after shots, everyone smiling and looking great and hopefully feeling better about themselves. I am proud of them and for them........

Then the answer comes to me.........I want that for myself!

Seven days from today I will be in the hospital having my weight loss surgery, I have such a mixed bunch of emotions. I am so excited, and at the sametime this is such a huge step. I wonder if everyone feels this way?

Some of my emotional issue might come from the all liquid diet for 14 days, talking about hard to get used to! lol

I really want to change my life and I know that I am ready to take my life into control,so this is the path that will lead me to where I want to be....