angieleigh

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I guess it hasn't been a good couple days not anything to do with my band just my life.  It just seems I'm so emotional and stuff is just getting to me.  More to do with my husband...I have surgery and I get nothing, no card, no flowers, nothing at all.  I always get told you need to tell me what you want and when I do it's like I get punished why the hell am I telling you then??  I just don't feel very much support from him which makes me angry since we talked at length about how I was going to need him to support me in all this and was told "of course I will".  I have no issue of doing anything on my own when I know that's how it's going to be but, when you were expecting help it's a let down.  Maybe i'm just over emotional or being a "girl" I don't know.

So surgery was one week ago today and I'll tell ya the day after surgery I was thinking oh Lord what did I do??  Last night I came back to work and it's been going okay but as the hours tick away I'm getting more and more sore.  I've been lucky and only vomited once and that was yesterday not sure why (maybe to much water) but I'll be glad when I can finally get mashed fish and a scrambled egg I'm kinda getting tired of protein shakes, cream soup, jell-o and pudding.  Mom and Jake got pizza last night and oh did it smell good...mom's looked really good with all the veggies (oh how I wish I could have some veggies).  I'm down 6.2 lbs already so I figure that's a good start. 

From what I know surgery went well other than breaking out in hives to Leviquin so they had to switch my antibiotic (now that makes 4 antibiotics I'm allergic too...good thing I try to let my system fight when I do get sick).  Dad had a heart cath done the day after but everything looked good the doc said, I hated the fact that I wasn't there when he had it done (working in health care I ask alot of questions lol).  I got out of the hospital Thursday so at least dad and I were chilling out together while mom and Jake took care of us.  Dad went back home on Sunday and Mom decided to stay till Thursday this week just to help me over the hump.  Thursday and Friday I'll be on my own since Jake has to leave for a conference and won't be back till Saturday but, I think I'll be okay.  Easy going is all I can do.