angmberry
surgery in two days!!!
Mar 14, 2010
I have been bottoming out from lack of carbs and hypoglycemic episodes...the dietician has me drinking juice all day and it's working fairly well. I have to stay on top of it b/c it can happen fairly quick. Other than that, I have my game-face on and have been cruisin through.My first crazy challenge was to host our turn for dinner club. I decided to go ahead and host even though we were on a liquid diet. I wanted to get our turn out of the way for the next couple of months. When I came home to cook I was starving and that was hard. The smell of the food made my hunger worse...so, I ate some cottage cheese and satisfied my hunger and continued cooking. When I was no longer hungry it was a breeze. The party was a success and I was okay around the food and everyone eating. I knew I could do it. I know I can deal with these types of situations in the future.
I've lost 10lbs since last Sunday... Emotionally I had a rough afternoon yesterday...irrational fears, fears, sadness etc..... This morning I feel sad and emotional...like I'm morning the "old" me already.....very teary....I might drown in my own tears!!!! Lol I'm trying to get excited. This is what I've been working toward for the last 2 1/2 months. I know this is a big decsion and I'm trying to wrap my head around life after surgery. I'm having a hard time letting go, but I know I will be in great hands.
So,today I am getting things ready...getting my son packed to stay with his Nanna for a few days and getting my things together too.
Wish me luck!!!
