Aphicrissyt
I am a Texan through and through,born and raised. I grew up with a ton of family and friends in a town about 130,000 close to the oklahoma border. After age 8 I went from being a all stick kid to a plump akward girl.No one in my family is overweight and thats saying alot becaus there are alot of them. I have struggled with no one understanding for almost all of my life. My weight would fluctuate but I was still "overweight". I was really active with sports through jr.high and early highschool,then it was more social groups after that.I did everything everyone else did,I was never thinking about my weight when I was with my friends (I put on a good mask). I graduate highschool as a class fav and personality for best dressed,I was a debutant, a pink darling,and a peer leader. In College I was still just as sure of my self,or as I like to call it now the yrs of denial. I was my sororities most active new-member,supportive sister,and overall outgoing individual. I worked up to 3 jobs at one time,so I kept the weight at around 200 wich was quiet low for me.The University I attended was in my hometown and then I realized that I needed to get away,I now look back and tink away from what,becaus when I left I hit reality! I moved 2hrs away, I broke up with a long term boyfriend,completely left everyone and everything I knew behind. Well as is turns out that didnt work out so well,I was alone alot more! and I ate alot more,and became alot more indebt with student loans becaus it was really hard to find a job.Then at the end of the term I started to hang out with my old friends back home alot more and then at a toga party I met my future husband!Things were getting better,then when I got back to my apt it had ben broken into and everything taken! It was right befor Christmas.So I had to move back home.My parents were in the mits of a crazy divorce and I had no were else to go. i got back in school there and roomed with a friend of mine, then about 6 months later Cary(my now husband) and I bought a house a little outside the town were I was living. We were still in school and had fairly decent jobs.Things were getting better! But I was comfortable again and started eatting. I had really good friends at the hospital I worked at,and Carys job was close to the house. Then my job came under new managment from a much snaller company and I lost my job after 1.5yrs. I became very down again.Being in our little suburb was a little far for most to drive and I started to be alone,taking online classes and eating for the most part.Then Carys job decided to move its corp. office and we both became unemployeed. This was the hardest time,and it all worked out,he got a much better job,we sold our house and moved to the metro plex. I am back at my big old school and will graduate next yr. Things are finally calming down,in may our new house will be ready and we will move again.Hopefully for good for a very long time.But then about 7 months prior ( I had been considering lap band for 3yr.) I had done everything for insurance on his last job and while all of my surgery paper work was submitted he lost it.So when he got new insurance I was seen as a pre existing condition.Sooo I kind of just pushed it away and thought I am going to die of obesity. I developed terrible anxiety and depression. Then what finally did it for me was that carys new job began 3 months befor my semester was out so I stayed at my highschool best friend Kristies house for 3 months. I got another job that was awesome and I miss,she and I started walking really early in the morning and counting calories. Although I was losing a little,I didnt care becaus I wasn't gaining! Then I move down were I am now with my husband to a 3rd floor apt and the walking alone wasnt very motivating. So I thien realized if paying out of pocket is what I have to do then it will be worth it to get my sense of pride back.So that my story.And I will accomplish my goals! and I am so excited for everyone else who has the chance to have this done and succeeds.
