aprilrose_39
Thanksgiving "AS"
Nov 30, 2009
First Thanksgiving "AS" ( after surgery )We decided to not have thanksgiving at our house this year, and were invited to Carol's brothers house. I have to say that I wasnt looking forward to it at all. They are not a close family and his wife's family was gonna be there as well.
But much to my suprize, I had a really nice time. I will admit that I missed the quantity of food I use to eat, and the all day grazing I used to do. But I really didnt feel deprived of anything. I ate a bite or two of everything I wanted, even pie, and was happy. It truely amazed me. Things are so different for me now, in ways that I never expected or was covered in any class I had to take before surgery. My relationship with food is different now, but some times my head just doesnt get it. I still order too much food, still take too big of a bite, still want to eat the same greasy, fatty stuff that got me to 423lbs. Thank God for my small stomach, and no hunger pangs. I LOVE not being hungry.
I've been fat all my life. I never dreamed I'd actually like to walk a dog, take a hike, work in the yard. Those things were never something I COULD do, so I thought I hated them. I just didnt know that it wasnt that I hated them, just that I literally couldn't do them at my size. When you've never been normal size, you simply have nothing to compare things to. My lowest weight was 8lbs...at birth..LOL.
Life is good. The weight is coming off. And I feel so much better than I ever did. When I hit 250...I'm throwing a HUGE party in MY honor because when I first started this whole thing, I remember thinking.. "if I can lose enough weight to weigh 250, thats when I'll know I am a success" And here I am, walking up the drive of 250's house ready to knock on the door, and I know I can lose enough to reach the 100's.
