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3 pounds gone this week.... 2lbs away from the elusive fairytale land!

As yesterday was Mother's Day... we went to my wonderful Mother-in-Law's house for lunch... not much that I could eat.... although it smelled so delicious... she cooked some FINE Southern cooking... do you hear me... ? :) So I settled on some ham, green beans and one bite of her famous biscuits.

Even though it smelled so good... once I started eating, I just lost the pleasure of eating it... as if it became a chore.   Fat Girl Say WHAT?  I just didn't enjoy it.. it tasted awesome... I can't figure out if it was that I don't feel hungry but knowing I have to eat.. or the fact that chewing food into liquid does me in. :(

Hopefully... this too shall pass.

I completely understand what they mean by the 'mourning' of food.  I am so tired of eating the same thing over and over again.  I know this is just a short span of time compared to the rest of my life.. and I know I have the inner ability to do this, I just didn't think that it would be this difficult... surgery was the easy part.

It does feel good to put on clothes that were previously snug... errr... well.. ok... TIGHT!  Does that make you feel better?  :) It does do my self esteem good to put on something that actually fits properly or in some instances be a bit loose.

I am committed to changing my health.. with almost 20lbs lost in 3 weeks time, I can already 'feel' a difference in the way that my body is responding physically.  I haven't had my blood pressure medication since my surgery and the bp is perfect!  Even my fibromyalgia seems to be responding better.  My blood sugar has been within normal range and not teetering on the high side as it was before.

I do hope that at some point I will actually be able to enjoy food again... but for now... the thrill is gone.

I want to be the hero that my daughters see in me.

I want to be the wise woman that my son see's in me.

I want to see the beautiful, sexy, brilliantly intelligent woman that my husband see's in me..

I want to exude confidence that the world see's in me.

I want the world to see the Jesus that is in me.

... Really going to voice my thoughts to an electronic 'paper' ?    This will be a painful journey, for both the reader but moreso for the writer.  So pray with/for me as I get all of my thoughts together so  that I may make some form of a pedantic substance.

Thanking you in advance,

I am

Talli