bamma2006
The New Year, a New ME
Jan 06, 2009
Well, it is 2009, the year for me. My main goal is to reach my goal weight by the end of this year. But I am also looking forward to becoming a better person all around. My personal growth over last year was amazing. I found out so much about myself. I found out my dad was not as bad as I thought; that my mother really messed me up; but forgiveness is serenity. I cannot forgive them face to face, but I can in my heart and mind. I can also forgive Gary. With a better understanding of me, comes a calmness I have not experienced in a very, very long time. I think I am scaring people!! Things that I was holding on to, angry about, no longer seem important. What is important is recognizing that I am not a bad person. That genuinely, I am good, and worth working on. So, 2009 is my year. I will be more aware of what I eat, and how I eat. I will drink my water, take my vitamins and calcium. I will exercise. I will be more aware of people around me, and how their actions relate to me, not how I think they relate to me. I will not sweat the small stuff. I will love my family, and allow them to love me back. I am worthwhile. I am beautiful, in body and in mind. I am strong. I will no longer allow people's ideas, thoughts, and visions affect me the way they used to. I will be more understanding, less sarcastic and defensive. I will walk and talk softly. I will find joy in the little things life offers, and reveal in the smile of my grandson, for he loves me unconditionally. I will be more patient. I will smile, laugh, and not be afraid. I will not fear the things that I have feared most in the past. I will approach everything head on, and will not shy away. I will work hard, and play hard. I will be good to myself. I will not get angry, unless anger is the only way to resolve something. I will try new things, and not be afraid or ashamed.So this is the new year, and the new me. I only hope I can accomplish all of my wants, as well as my goals. It is a daunting challenge, but I like a good challenge.
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About Me
Nottingham, NH
Location
32.0
BMI
Surgery
08/15/2008
Surgery Date
Jun 24, 2008
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