belinda011408
Wow 190lbs!!
Jul 05, 2008
Lately, I've been on an emotional roller coaster. I think at this point the only great thing I can speak of is weighing the lowest ever in my adult life. It's funny how sometimes we wish for something so badly and when it presents itself, we don't know how to deal with it. Losing all of this weight has opened up a few doors in the romance department. I've never had so much positive attention from the opposite sex and I don't know how to handle it. Somehow, at this point in my life I feel so lost. A friend of mine whom I just met recently described me as a ship lost at sea with no direction. My response to him was I need my damn compass but I can't find it.
As much as I hate to admit this, he's right. That's exactly how I feel. The most ironic part of this all is if you asked some of my closest friends to describe me, they'd say "someone who has it all together". How funny is that??
I sometimes wonder if I will ever find my compass. Will he ever enter my life to show me the way? If he does, will I know "he's" the one? As I listen to one of my favorite songs by Creed titled "My Sacrifice" I think to myself "that song describes what I want to feel" I have to admit this is the only aspect of my life that I'm totally clueless. I feel I'm successful in every aspect of my life except love. Will I ever find that one person who compliments me? Yes, there are others in my life who show an interest in me but it doesn't feel right. I'm hanging in there for that "one".
As much as I hate to admit this, he's right. That's exactly how I feel. The most ironic part of this all is if you asked some of my closest friends to describe me, they'd say "someone who has it all together". How funny is that??
I sometimes wonder if I will ever find my compass. Will he ever enter my life to show me the way? If he does, will I know "he's" the one? As I listen to one of my favorite songs by Creed titled "My Sacrifice" I think to myself "that song describes what I want to feel" I have to admit this is the only aspect of my life that I'm totally clueless. I feel I'm successful in every aspect of my life except love. Will I ever find that one person who compliments me? Yes, there are others in my life who show an interest in me but it doesn't feel right. I'm hanging in there for that "one".
May 2, 2008--started exercising
May 02, 2008
Today I'm at 216lbs and I feel great. I started an exercise routine today. I'm a little tired today but will get some great rest.
post op 3 weeks
Apr 12, 2008
Now eating soft foods. I'm having a hard time making myself eat. I'm never hungry anymore. I'm not complaining but it's so different from before. I've lost 37 lbs since surgery on 03/19/08. I feel great!!
5 days til surgery
Jan 09, 2008
Today I took care of all the paperwork and pre-op requirements for my surgery. I was able to see the room I'll be in (#2) and met some of the surgical staff. I had an EKG done which was normal yay!!! but my freaking cholestoral is off the charts...eeeeek!!!
