Bella197502
Hi my name is Lorna, my mom is currently on the losers bench, most of you know her, her name is GerriC, I have always been big even before children my lowest weight since I was 18 was 178 lbs, and then kids and bang over 200lbs, I am now 270lbs if not more, I am afraid to step on the scales in fear that it will say something worse, I have tried so many diets and diet pills I can't remember, and nothing works, I remember after my daughter was born my weight just kept piling on and my doctor then said it was because I didn't exercise enough, which was bull
, I walked 45 minutes every day to my inlaws house on the other side of town and then another 45 minutes home again. So I knew that that wasn't the reason. I work 81/2 hour shifts at work on my feet all day, (yes i know it is in the fast food industry) but unless you gain weight from smelling the food you would think I would be skinny, cause I don't eat there, well ok maybe once a month but thats about it as after 6 years i don't care for the food there anyways. But I am still not losing any weight. My hubby says to me all the time I don't see how you can be the size you are when you don't even eat as much as me, I can honestly say I am not a big eater, but I have a confession ( I LOVE CHOCOLATE) it is so my down fall, I try to stay away from it but it calls me LOL. I have Polycystic Disease, I was dignosed with it after my daughter was born, in 1996, thank god I had my children when I did. I have a few health problem like PCO'S, Asthma, I have bad skin, as I was told by a surgeon, I suffer with cysts under my arm pits that constintly fill up and burst holy painful, on top of that, I have had Displacia (sp?) twice, which is pre cancerous cells of the cervix, and high blood pressure, the list keeps going.
Well heres the thing, my mom has had RNY, and she is doing really good, but I am not sure if I want to take that big of step,well actually I have been thinking alot about this decision for a while. And I just wonder if it is right for me, I am like everyone I am sure, nerveous, I have so much going on in my life right now i am just wondering is it worth adding more to it.
I know that I would being helping myself and for my children and husband, to live a heathier lifestyle, I hope this is normal. I know that I am just rambling so I guess I will stop ranting for now.
