Beth M.
The Drop-out!
Jan 29, 2009
DON'T LAUGH... but I started this process in 2006!
I lost 22 lbs of the required 10% (35 lbs) in the first 2 months... I only needed to lose 13 more! YEAH-ME
, right??
**JUMP AHEAD 2 1/2 YRS**
I attended the "re-activation" class (via Kaiser) with the other drop-outs on 12/30/08 and am back in the saddle, so to speak. (Still have only 15 lbs to loose to meet goal!)
I still feel like a drop-out. What's my problem anyway? Why do I sabotage myself? Why do I get in my own way of health and happiness? I'm SO close?!? I'm really getting pissed off.
I have good days and sucky days. I've probably gained since re-activation but am afraid to find out.
I HAVE to get to the bottom of this shit... surgery won't help if my head isn't in the right place. But how do I do that? Any ideas?
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I lost 22 lbs of the required 10% (35 lbs) in the first 2 months... I only needed to lose 13 more! YEAH-ME
, right?? **JUMP AHEAD 2 1/2 YRS**
I attended the "re-activation" class (via Kaiser) with the other drop-outs on 12/30/08 and am back in the saddle, so to speak. (Still have only 15 lbs to loose to meet goal!)
I still feel like a drop-out. What's my problem anyway? Why do I sabotage myself? Why do I get in my own way of health and happiness? I'm SO close?!? I'm really getting pissed off.
I have good days and sucky days. I've probably gained since re-activation but am afraid to find out.
I HAVE to get to the bottom of this shit... surgery won't help if my head isn't in the right place. But how do I do that? Any ideas?
