Random Thoughts...

Jan 20, 2009

I havent been posting at all...I really don't know why just have been lazy I guess. I have been working 40+ hours a week so I've been exhausted. I get on the board everyday just reading and seeing what interesting is going on. I'm starting to get frustrated because I'm stuck at 419 which puts me at 36 lbs lost to date...I cant seem to lose anymore than that. Yes..I know it has only be a month and a half since the surgery I'm just getting so disouraged. I have no restriction at all even though she put 4cc's in my band. I have been beginning to workout but every time I do I'm so sore the next so then I don't want to workout again for awhile. I constantly have to deal with my mom bitching at me for being fat...Did you workout today? What did you eat? You really need to start  working out when you aren't working? Thats how it is all day everyday. I talk to my mom about once a day and she manages to fit all of those questions into a 5 minute conversation. Its just crazy! I think I don't post here because if people actually read this they will think I'm a huge bitch or something and I dont want to come across like that. I really just ot on here to complain. lol. Which isn't good. Anywho, I got back to the doctors on the 2nd...so I hope I get a nice sized fill because I can't be doing this. I'm starving all the time..its like I don't even have the band in me. I know this is supposed to be hard but when does it get easier?  The emotional breakdowns have stopped though, which is good. I don't really know what was causing them. Anyways...I think I'm done for the night. I'm going to try to get back in the habit of write on here.

xoxo

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