Kristen *
8 months post op
Jan 03, 2007
i've been bad. bad. bad.
i turned into one of those people who irritated me when i was a pre-op. I'd chronicled every experience of this process leading up to surgery - promised that i wouldn't go disappearing after surgery.. and yet, that's exactly what i did.
so, i'm 8 months out and down 140 pounds. CRAZY!!!!!! it's weird, i think i look like how i've felt like i looked for the majority of my life. I think i had body dysmorphia with my fat self.. i never saw me as fat as i truly was, until maybe just before surgery.
anyway. i think this was the best thing i could have ever done for myself. i feel amazing. i'm back to my flexible self. i can sit anywhere, in any position and be comfortable. i can cross my legs and be a lady when the need strikes. i flirt. i'm happy. i work out. i play with my dog. taking pictures is 100 times easier because i can actually chase my subject around.
sometimes i feel like i cheated. i've had a really, really easy time. i dont know if it's because i was ready, so my head didn't care that i was only eating 2 tablespoons of food at a time - my stomach sure didn't. thatwas all i could handle for awhile! i haven't had one major issue.
the worst problems i've had are a low iron and B1 count, all my own fault for not taking the vitamins like i should - and it took me about 4-5 months before i could eat chicken.
i do dump. in fact, i started to this morning. my normal special k cereal was all gone from the cereal stand - so i went with what i thought might be my next best option - raisin bran crunch. hmmm, not so much. i thought the 30 grams of sugar might be natural sugar from the raisins, but no - i had a mild case of the woozy's and then sleepy's.
hmmm. other than that, life is normal. i'm now in a 12 or 14. i don't shop at the fat girl stores anymore and i'm finding that veryyyyy difficult. i have no idea where else to go other than old navy. the gap is crazy expensive [and we thought lane bryant charged us an arm and a leg!!], and banana republic is even worse.
so many of the stores in the mall seem geared towards 17yo cheerleaders, so i just don't know where the late 20yo corporate girl is supposed to shop these days. ann taylor is for teachers and anyone over 50. same with talbots.
it's frustrating! but believe me i'm not complaining. my bank account is, but i'm not. i've definitely replaced my food addiction with a shopping one, but at least i'm not the one in control of that - my pay checks are. so it's keeping me in line. LOL
i guess that's about as updated as i can get at this time.. if anything changes, i'll try to remember to let you know.
xoxo,
kristen*
i turned into one of those people who irritated me when i was a pre-op. I'd chronicled every experience of this process leading up to surgery - promised that i wouldn't go disappearing after surgery.. and yet, that's exactly what i did.
so, i'm 8 months out and down 140 pounds. CRAZY!!!!!! it's weird, i think i look like how i've felt like i looked for the majority of my life. I think i had body dysmorphia with my fat self.. i never saw me as fat as i truly was, until maybe just before surgery.
anyway. i think this was the best thing i could have ever done for myself. i feel amazing. i'm back to my flexible self. i can sit anywhere, in any position and be comfortable. i can cross my legs and be a lady when the need strikes. i flirt. i'm happy. i work out. i play with my dog. taking pictures is 100 times easier because i can actually chase my subject around.
sometimes i feel like i cheated. i've had a really, really easy time. i dont know if it's because i was ready, so my head didn't care that i was only eating 2 tablespoons of food at a time - my stomach sure didn't. thatwas all i could handle for awhile! i haven't had one major issue.
the worst problems i've had are a low iron and B1 count, all my own fault for not taking the vitamins like i should - and it took me about 4-5 months before i could eat chicken.
i do dump. in fact, i started to this morning. my normal special k cereal was all gone from the cereal stand - so i went with what i thought might be my next best option - raisin bran crunch. hmmm, not so much. i thought the 30 grams of sugar might be natural sugar from the raisins, but no - i had a mild case of the woozy's and then sleepy's.
hmmm. other than that, life is normal. i'm now in a 12 or 14. i don't shop at the fat girl stores anymore and i'm finding that veryyyyy difficult. i have no idea where else to go other than old navy. the gap is crazy expensive [and we thought lane bryant charged us an arm and a leg!!], and banana republic is even worse.
so many of the stores in the mall seem geared towards 17yo cheerleaders, so i just don't know where the late 20yo corporate girl is supposed to shop these days. ann taylor is for teachers and anyone over 50. same with talbots.
it's frustrating! but believe me i'm not complaining. my bank account is, but i'm not. i've definitely replaced my food addiction with a shopping one, but at least i'm not the one in control of that - my pay checks are. so it's keeping me in line. LOL
i guess that's about as updated as i can get at this time.. if anything changes, i'll try to remember to let you know.
xoxo,
kristen*
