Just under 200lbs today.

Apr 23, 2012

Hello World,
I am officially just under 200lbs, 199.6 to be exact. It's been almost a year since my surgery. Although I started this journey over 300lbs, in my head I had being under 200lbs as being a major milestone. It is don't get me wrong but it was less climatic feeling than I thought it would be. I expected firework or tears of joy but nothing that dramatic happened except for a feeling of accomplishment.

I tend to look toward my next challenge/goal once I've completed something. I don't dwell on the last thing for long be it positive or negative. Now I'm focusing on being under 190lbs, then it will be under 180lbs, etc, etc. until hopefully I can reach my ultimate goal of 150lbs. Whether that's doable for me or not has yet to be seen. I've been lucky and lost consistently, without any plateaus and maybe that trend will continue *knock on wood*, but I'm mentallly prepared for that not being the case.

I think I've really changed mentally and how I view food as well as physically. The mayor of my city recently went on a crash diet publically to raise awareness about eating healthy. I was appalled by this because he did EXACTLY what we all have done in the past and shouldn't do.

Before my surgery, I accepted that I had to learn to eat a completely different way. For me there's no cheating, meaning, either it's something I will/can eat or not. With that in mind I don't deprive myself because I know from the past that I will try to binge on something if do. I've tried dozens of products and recipes to either replace or substitute old favourties. I am lucky and can tolerate most foods. The only thing I have NOT incorporated back into my diet is pasta, whole wheat or otherwise. I just can't justify the calories to myself. I'm not suffering for it but I continue to look for a product that I could enjoy.

I think that's all I have to say for now. Thanks for listening to my rant.

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