BrenGram48
Hello, My name is Brenda and I am from barberton, Ohio I have had a long struggle with weight loss like most people I have tried many diets. I had trouble gaining weight when I was eighteen and couldn't figure out why I just kept gaining and by the time the doctors figured out that I had hypothyroid I gained fifty pound and its seem like it just piling on. And haven't been able to do anything about i got up to 294 at one time. Then it finally got to 250 thought i was doing good then stulled around 250 know and I cannot lose it. I became a diabetic close to fifteen years know along with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, kidney damage and chronic arthritis. I am know going to have weight loss surgery February 16Th 2011. I am hoping for that to help me. I have Friends that are very supportive of this and then I have seen some of them shy away already from others that have had the surgery. I am hoping not to chase them away because I am having this. I know how uncomfortable it can make a person you have been friends with for years, and just as heavy as they are. Then you have this surgery and loss weight. Then they don't feel comfortable around you anymore. But I have raised my children and know have grandchildren. My kids have always been worried about me having this done. But they know have there own life's, and it is time for me to work on mine! My husband is very supportive of me. He has hes worries about this surgery but he knows that it is the best thing for my health right know. It has been and long journey for me with lots of feeling just going every which way. You feel like every time someone looks at you , you feel like there judging you because of your weight. Which brings lots of depression ! It has been really hard for me to look for job. I have such a low selfasteam that I have a lot of trouble going around new people. I stay where my security blankets is as my husband says.
So I am starting a new beginning, and I am very excited about it ! God willing my health will improve very much and life will not be all about doctors and meds. It will be doing them thing that I never did because of embarrassment. Not being the one setting back saying no I don't want to do this or that. I realize everyone gets talked about, but unless you have been in a heavy body you could never know the hurt and many feelings it brings along with it. So I am wishing everyone out there the best of luck in in there journey to weight loss it has been a long time coming !! God bless you and good luck !
