brynn3
4 weeks out
Nov 16, 2013
It's Saturday morning and I'm 4 weeks out and finally have a day off after 9 days in a row of working. I woke up with the worst headache ever, but I am still so happy this morning. I am so thankful for this surgery. Still on liquids and I'm fine with that, only recently okay with it. My ticker says I have 72.2 pounds to go until I reach goal, and for the first time in my life I am okay with this. It doesn't feel overwhelming to me like it has all of my life. I feel like I finally have a fighting chance to do this. I think that's what is so amazing about this surgery. It helps to get your head in the game. Whenever I dieted before I would feel like it was pointless, I am fat and always will be. The only negative thing, which I've chosen to ignore, is eating around people now. I feel like everyone is watching what I'm eating and how much I'm eating. I can eat a half of a yogurt and I think they expect me to take 2 bites and be like I'm full I can't eat anymore. I can eat a sf jello pudding, the whole thing, and be full. Not sure what the difference is. It's weird though because sometimes I can only eat half and other times more. I'm trying to slow down and listen to my stomach more so I don't overeat my sleeve. That's hard to change because that's a life long habit.
Chocolate doesn't tempt me anymore, I know I'm still early in this game, but it's a nice relief. Before I started the weight loss preop phase I would buy a bag of reese peanut butter cups and hershey bars, and would just sit down and chow on them like there was no tomorrow. I do want meat, chicken, roast, all of it, but as I eat my oatmeal or yogurt I am comfortable and content with what I have. It does get boring though. lol I do want to find a therapist at some point to help with my food issues. If I didn't have the candy before I felt, I don't know, overwhelmed, like I needed it to get through the evening. Who the hell needs candy like that. Obviously some issues there!