Bubbler596
10 Jun 10 was the first day of my new life. I never had a problem losing weight, the problem was it would always find me and bring friends with it. The heaviest I ever got was 180-190 until I met my ex. He was not much of a provider so all the financial worries fell on me. The only thing that seemed to give me peace was food. It made me feel good. After letting myself almost double in size after 13 years my ex decided he didn't want to be with someone as big as me. I no longer could put my own shoes on. It was humilating. Finally a lady at work had the procedure done and did marvelous. I tried to get it approved and I had a cancer scare that put everything on hold, by the time I got it approved my insurance dropped out of the Federal Government, so now I started the procedure again, only to be denied - fight it and won and again another cancer scare. Fortunately I was approved but the insurance company dropped out of the Federal Government, that was two. Finally this year a new insurance company, Blue Cross and Blue Shield. came in and because I now have developed avascular necrosis of my right hip there was no denial. I am 2 months post op and I think I am down about 60lbs. This is the best thing I ever did. I felt no pain from the surgery the only pain I have is the constant pain in my hip. Hopefully the orthopedic surgeon will help me get a new hip so I can have a life again. I am so tried of getting up at 4:00am going to work and going directly to bed because of the instense pain. I am having trouble wanting to eat anything.
I need to find a new way of handling stress and to never let not care enough about myself that I not take care of my body.
