I have hit my goal weight

Jan 10, 2009

It has been a very long time since I wrote. So busy over the last 10 months. As of yesterday I hit my goal of 169 I am down 100lbs. That seems totaly unreal that I have lost that much in less then a year. It is unbelievable the way I feel. Sometimes I find myself stareing at myself when I walk by a large window or a mirror I have to take a second look. Another thing is getting attention from men. That I will never get used to. We all went out New Years eve and we went to a bar and there were these guys playing pool and the one guy was totaly hitting on me and it was so very weird. Don't get me wrong it was nice but so very weird at the same time. I feel that I have learned a lot about myself and about those that that are around me this last year. My family anf friends have been nothing but suportive and that has been great. My youngest sister says that that she never looked at me as being a fat person but now when we look at pics she says that she can't even remember me looking like that. My kids to have even been telling me that I am pretty and that they like me better this way. And my husband he has been the most wonderful person threw this whole thing, I was so scared about how this would effect our realationship and I have since learned that we had a srong love and trust in eachother before this and it is even stronger now. He of course loves me as I was and loves me the same this way. I saw so many realationships fail after surgery that I was nervous that he wouldn't like the new me. I mean the me inside the one that has been waiting to come out. I feel that I am still the same me just smaller and stronger. I has condefance and I am not worried what others think of me. I FEEL FREE!!!  I will have to post the pic from new years of my sisters and me. I have always been the biggest, and have always looked at them as the tall,thin pretty ones and when I saw the pic for the first time I felt as pretty as them. I looked like I belonged. It was a great feeling to belong. Also when we took Christmas pics. I normaly hide behind everyone and this year I was out in frot saying look at me! I am excited for this new year. I feel like I am just beinging my life. I will be 31 in March and I have decided that it will be the new 21. 21 seems like the year in your life that you come into your own and fun begins, so I figure this is my year of new begingings.

THINGS I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO AND HAVE ACOMPLISHED:

ice skating with my kids
sledding with my kids
fitting into a size 12
rode a bike and didn't look to big for it
 so much more to come.

To those of you reading this I wish you luck and sucess with your choice if you have ?'s or need someone to talk to I am here. talk at you all soon.

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