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I'm in the middle of packing moving in another week and decided I needed to take a breather.  While sitting here I just realized that it was four years ago today that I made the best decision of my life and had vsg surgery.  I'm not going to say that it's been smooth going this last year (the first three years were a breeze), it's getting harder to stay in control of what I put in my mouth.  I have gained about 12 lbs in a year which isn't bad but it does concern me how easy it is to go back to my old ways.  I know what I need to do and once I move (cause right now my home is a mess) I can get back to following what needs to be done and lose those pesky 12 lbs.  I am still down 102 lbs and still fit into my size 8 or 10 jeans but they are getting a little tight and that is definitely my wake up call. 

Well have to get back to packing - uuuggghhh!!!  I love my vsg and would do it all over again!!  If you are on the cusp whether to do it or not, take it from someone who had arthritis (still have it but not as painful), high blood pressue, and terrible knee pain, who weighed at time of surgery 267 lbs (was up to 298 at one time) was done to 150 lbs at one time (will be there again) do it - it may be hard at the beginning but overall it is so so worth it.

Toni

I can't belive that it was two years ago today that I made best decision of my life.  Having been overweight my entire life I never knew what it was like to be able to go into a regular store or into departments that were not labled "chubbie", "big girls", or "women sizes".  Now to be able to go into any store I wish and buy off the rack is still mind blowing to me.
I did not do this surgery (had the vsg) in order to go shopping, I did it because my body was slowly falling apart.  I have arthritis in both knees, my lower back, had high blood pressure and just the normal wear and tear of carrying over 100 lbs of extra fat with me daily. 
I started this journey at 267 lbs (morning of my surgery) I now weigh as of this morning 153 lbs my goal was 150 lbs which I had gone down as far as 148 lbs have gained a few but feel comfortable where I am right now.  Would I like to lose a few more pounds?  Of course I would, and I will just need to get my head back into this program. 
It is a lot harder now that I am able to eat more, but I keep myself in check.  I do weigh myself every morning, some don't I do that's how I know where I am and keep tabs on what I am eating.  As I tell myself (yes I do talk to myself) if I don't buy it I won't eat it.  I do get nervous reading about how many people have gained their weight back, and I have promised myself that I will not become another statistic.  For the first time in my life I feel comfortable in my own skin!  I sometimes do act like I am still overweight.  For example:  on the subways here in NYC if I see a seat on the subway I still won't try to sit in it even though I know that I can now but I would never had tried that when I was overweight.  But, that's a head thing which I am still working on.
Other than that I am very very happy I did this surgery, just sorry I didn't do it before.
My stats right now:  starting weight 267 current weight 153.  Previous size:  pants 22/current 8 tops: 2X/current med or small
I love love my sleeve!! 

Haven't written in a while and it's time for me to get myself back into keeping my inner thoughts out there.  Tomorrow makes 17 months since my vsg, starting weight 267 current weight 151 (I have gained 3 lbs)Ahhhhhh!!!  I know that doesn't seem like much but I am afraid that I am getting back into my old habits.  For the past two weeks I have been eating more crap (sorry but that what it is) than I have eaten since before my surgery and I am getting scared.  I feel like I am losing control because I have learned how to work my sleeve, meaning when I feel that tightness I stop and after a while I start eating again once the feeling is gone.  I have been eating carbs like there is no tomorrow, I mean I can sit there and eat a whole can of pringles in a few hours, devil dogs, etc. nothing that is good for me (good tasting but not good for me).  

So today as I stepped on the scale and my weight was 151 lbs I looked in the mirror and said STOP!!!!!  I am teaching my inner thoughts to stop with the bad carbs and eat my protein like the way I know I can and should.  It just scares me how easy it is to be able to go back to those bad habits!!!!  But, I got my head back facing the right way again and will stick to what I have been doing for the past 17 months.  I'm not saying I won't have a bad carb here or there but it's up to me what goes into my mouth and what I buy for my house - and I have to STOP.  I worked to hard to get where I am now, from a size 22 pants to a size 8, from a size 2x top to a medium - I never want to see those sizes again in my closet and I am the only one who can stop that from happening.  

I still love my sleeve and still so happy that I had it done!!

Toni

It was one year ago to day that I made the most exciting change in my life - had my vsg done!!!  I started at 267 lbs that morning and as of today I am 159 lbs total loss (so far) of 108 lbs.   I had my doctor appt this morning and he asked me if I was happy at my weight he never told me what I should weigh I told him I would like to get down to 150 - so that's my new goal.

I went from a size 22W pants to a size 8/10, 2X top to medium in just one year - who would have thought this could all happen in one year.  To be called slim, skinny or to be told you are losing to much weight is something I never heard my whole life.  I was a chubby child and an obese adult and now I am healthy!!! 

Not saying this road was easy cause we all know it's not and I am not saying that the roads ahead are going to be easy but it's all a change for the better - my knees don't hurt, walk up stairs without losing my breath, to not feel hungry - never ever thought I would say those words.

I am just a happy person finally and can't wait to buy new summer clothes!!!! 

I love my sleeve!!!! 

I hit my 6 months yesterday 9/16 and I feel great.  I started at 267 and am down to 190, from a size 20/22 to a size 14 haven't been this size in years.  I never regret doing this only wish I had done it sooner.  My knees don't hurt anymore, my back is feeling great - have arthritis in both knees and my back.  I can walk up stairs without losing my breath and my heart not pounding in my chest.  I feel like a totally different person, still have problems getting all my fluids and protein in daily but I am working on it. 

Unfortunately, I did receive a bit of bad news the other day my breast cancer has returned and is now in my left breast.  I had breast cancer in my right breast and was in remission for 4 years.  But, my head is still on straight and I know I just have to do what I need to do.  I will have to discuss this with my wls surgeon and find out if I need to change my eating habits.

But all in all it's been great and I love my sleeve!!! 

Haven't written in awhile, just thought I would update my progress.  Well it's now 3 months since my surgery (vsg) and I am feeling great.  I am down 52 lbs and have not been at this weight in years.  My clothes, that's another story they are so big it's hysterical.  I now go by the nickname of "Slim" and "Skinny" by my boyfriend names that were never directed towards me.  Have been going to the gym at least 3 times a week doing cardio and working out with weights.  Doc says he wants me to work with weights so that I am not losing my muscle mass.  Still having a tough time getting all the liquids in, doing my best on that part.  Cannot eat chicken anymore, it just sits right in my chest but have no problem with beef - go figure. 
I go for my first set of labs in a couple of weeks and see the doc in July, hopefully everything is going well with that.
It feels so good to be able to walk up a flight of stairs and not get out of breath or literally pulling myself up the stairs to get to the top. 
So happy with my sleeve - should have done this years ago.  But, better late than never!!

Haven't written since my surgery feel it's time to get back on the OH.  Had vsg on 3/16/10 doing ok no pain which I was very happy about.  I am still very very tired and weary, feel like I have no strength at all.  Called my surgeon about this 2 weeks ago and he told me that my body is in starvation mode and to keep doing what I am doing.  I'm now on solid food in small 2 oz servings going down well do realize when I have had my limit, but I am still drained.  Not sure if my iron level is off or not have doctor appt next week so hopefully I will find out what's going on.
I do have one problem, no one in my family knows I did this only co-workers and friends and now I have to figure out how to tell them all.  Reason I didn't say anything before is because an aunt of mine had major complications from her wls surgery and didn't want family to think that this would happen to me also.  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  what to do what to do!!

Thanks for letting me vent..

Well tomorrow is my surgery and I am nervous as anything.  I am on clear liquids only today and never thought that chicken broth would taste so good.  I am waiting for the hospital to call with my surgery time - I keep staring at my cell phone. 

wish me luck and send a prayer my way tomorrow.

Went for my pre-op testing and my final visit to surgeon before my March 16th surgery.  I can't believe that date is coming so fast.  Time to get my supplies I will need for the house while I mend. 

I don't really write much but love reading and getting the info from this site. 
Three weeks from today is my surgery and I am starting to get nervous and mixed feelings.  I know this is the right thing for me to do after being overweight my whole life and trying almost every diet out there.  I know that this is just a tool, but I am starting to wonder am I doing the right thing.  Will I be able to deal with all the ups and downs after surgery!!!!  I haven't told anyone in my family because they will all be against it, especially since an aunt of mine had terrible experiences from her wls (which she did many many years ago in Texas when they first started doing wls).  So I do feel alone at times, have good friends and co-workers who know and are supportive - I haven't even told my boyfriend about this.  Sorry, just needed to get some of this ut of my system.