caringmom
Well, I am scheduled for surgery one week from today. This is one of the biggest and most exciting decisions I have ever made for myself! I am excited and nervous to begin! I am 30 yrs old, married with 2 young boys. I can't wait to have more energy for my daily life. I am going to go golf 18 holes without a golf cart. I am going to go dancing all night with my husband and our freinds. I am going to be light enough to go horseback riding again. I am going to jog and weight train with my husband. I an going to show my sons how to live a healthy life. I am going to play with my great-grandchildren. I will go to bed without pain in my back, hips and knees. I will not be diabetic at 35yrs old.
I began this journey last November. My favorite grandmother died last August. She and I were so alike! She was my kindred spirit and I miss her like crazy! She was morbidly obese since I was a young child, and before that. She had type 2 diabetes, eye sight problems, kidney problems, no feeling in her feet, a triple bypass in 1995, etc, etc. Finally 4 yrs ago she had a massive stroke and never recovered. She spent the last 3 years of her life in a nursing home on a feeding tube. She only spoke a little, and never got out of bed on her own after her stroke; she basically slept for the last 2 yrs. The last thing she ever said to me was "Are you still heavy honey?" I think about this as her way of encouraging me to lose weight and get healthy. She never meant that statement in a hurtful way, she wasn't that type of person. I am sure that she was sad to see me walk in her footsteps. Well, now I am doing something to change this family tradition! If she were here I know she would be proud, and I am sure that she would do it with me if she could!
