carpadiem
Surgery is tomorrow
Oct 12, 2008
My surgery is tomorrow.. Nerves have set in. I have been cool until today.
I have kissed my children and husband and told them that I love them.
The thought of never hearing the voice of my three year old and six years old's voice scares me. This is major surgery and what if I have bad recovery. I haven't told my parents or the rest of my family or friends. I don't want to hear their concerns. My coworkers think it is gallbladder surgery only because I have issues with gallbladder and my doctor may be removing it because I have gallstones. Although he doesn't want to do it all in one surgery.
My husband has been really supportive.
I know I have to do this to improve my diabetes,HBP, high cholesterol and overall health but I am scared and hope all is well. I know my life is in God's hands and he has a purpose. My husband is without a job right and starting in real estate now so I am worried about finances in case something does happen to me. There is no money coming in. What will happen to my kids? Just praying more and more these days..
This surgery to me was a choice but I compare it to having cancer and going through Chemo. I have to do something to prolong my life. I can't live like this. I am sure I won't have ten to fifteen years without it.
I am mad at myself for having to go through surgery.
I am sure I could have controlled my diet and exercised to resolve this weight problem but on the other hand I have never been able to lose weight. Over the years I have been gaining and gaining. I don't want to lose my life. God please be with me..
I have kissed my children and husband and told them that I love them.
The thought of never hearing the voice of my three year old and six years old's voice scares me. This is major surgery and what if I have bad recovery. I haven't told my parents or the rest of my family or friends. I don't want to hear their concerns. My coworkers think it is gallbladder surgery only because I have issues with gallbladder and my doctor may be removing it because I have gallstones. Although he doesn't want to do it all in one surgery.
My husband has been really supportive.
I know I have to do this to improve my diabetes,HBP, high cholesterol and overall health but I am scared and hope all is well. I know my life is in God's hands and he has a purpose. My husband is without a job right and starting in real estate now so I am worried about finances in case something does happen to me. There is no money coming in. What will happen to my kids? Just praying more and more these days..
This surgery to me was a choice but I compare it to having cancer and going through Chemo. I have to do something to prolong my life. I can't live like this. I am sure I won't have ten to fifteen years without it.
I am mad at myself for having to go through surgery.
I am sure I could have controlled my diet and exercised to resolve this weight problem but on the other hand I have never been able to lose weight. Over the years I have been gaining and gaining. I don't want to lose my life. God please be with me..
