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180s----F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!!!
May 04, 2015
I have been staying in the 190s for around 2 months! I got to 195...then 196...then 193...191...190...then back up to 194 again... I started thinking this is it. My body is done losing weight...and also, sometimes I was following all the rules...and sometimes I was cheating a bit. I am very grateful to be in the 190s...but I had this goal in my mind. I wanted to be at least as low as 185 for my graduation from college. (I went back to school two years ago and I am about to get my bachelor's degree!!!). So, this weekend my bf and I were talking about it. I said...oh well, I guess I won't hit my goal because how could I possible lose 10 more lbs in 2 weeks. He reminded me that in the beginning when I was on liquid I was losing very very fast. So I wondered if I could do it again. So after just one day of protein shakes, ice pops and jello...I finally hit 189! I never thought I would see the 180s! I am not going to keep this up long of course. But maybe this is the kickstart my body (and my brain) needed to get back on track! I don't know anything except that I am thankful for finally seeing that number. Besides the scale, I am now wearing a size 14/16. That is so crazy to me. I went to dress barn to find a dress for my upcoming graduation and for a wedding that I have the next weekend. Can you believe it...I got two. One the smallest size on the plus size side of the store..and actually one from the regular size side of the store (in the biggest size). I asked the girl that worked there if there was a difference in the 16 plus side or 16 regular side...and she said yes. The plus size 16 is bigger. So that means, that I legitimately fit into a dress from a regular size store. So weird...meanwhile in the mirror, I look exactly the same! I really dont see it but...I do feel it. I feel more comfortable in my own body. I love sitting with my legs crossed and sitting indian style and walking and just feeling more comfortable. I am really happy and grateful for being where I am. I do want more, of course but I am also happy with where I am now. At the very highest...I weighed 305. that was way before the lap band in 2007. I am now 189. That is so unbelievable to me.
