I'm a slacker...

Apr 14, 2011

...at blogging! I'm definitely not a slacker with my sleeve.

It's been a couple weeks since I've posted, but I don't think anything major has really happened to post about. What's kinda neat is that at 6 weeks post-op, I'm feeling quite normal. I can eat and drink anything now, and I don't feel like my whole day revolves around my stomach. I'm having an easy time getting in all my protein and fluids.

I'm up to 40.5 lbs lost (14.1 lost pre-op). I think I'm a slow loser compared to others I've seen on the board, but at the same time, it's not bothering me too much at this point. I'm starting to see changes in my face and body, and that's just wonderful. It's the little things that thrill me. For example, I put my cheek in my hand the other day and was so startled when I could feel my jaw line. My face is still fat (though it's getting thinner day by day), but for the first time, I was really able to feel the hard line of my jaw bone underneath. So exciting!

I'm looking forward to seeing the new me revealed. I've been overweight since I was 7 years old, so I have no idea what I'll look like as the fat burns away. It's exciting, but also scary. It's almost like redefining yourself. And I'm starting to feel pretty. Don't get me wrong...I never thought I was ugly. But I never really put much stock in how I looked. Now I'm paying more attention to myself. I'm wearing makeup each day, when I used to only put on make-up for a special occasion. I find that I smile now when I look at myself in the mirror.

I go back to the doctor on the 26th, and I'll have my official weigh-in. Excited about it and dreading it at the same time. I wonder if there will ever be a time when I'm not dreading stepping on that scale?

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