catmedina
I have always had a problem with my weight.Growing up was not easy for me kids can be very mean and they where.I spent a lot of time by myself as a kid and some of my teen years as well. Then as I got older I started to make friends easier but I was still growing. I tried some diets and they would work for a while and then I would stop eating that way and it would come back on.Now I'm 37yrs old and I have 3 great kids and a husband and a lot of extra weight and now I take insulin
11/27/06
Today I went to Ellis Hospital to have the first of my test's. I had to have a Barium Enema now mind you I was not puting 2 & 2 together at all. I was thinking that I had to drink something and then have a X ray, well thats not what it was. Well now I know boy did I feel stupid well every thing went just fine any ways.
12/12/06
Today I had another test I had a ultrasound of my gallblader,liver,pancreas and my kidney. thats right kidney I only have one I had cancer 2 years ago in my kidney the right one they had to take.I also had the test today that I thought I was having on the 27th of Nov. I also had my nutritional consult today which went good. I also went to the pulmonary lab my god that was really bad they had to take blood from my wrist and the first time they did not get it the second time they did and it still hurt bad. I had black and blues on both my wrist for a week.
1/16/07
Today I saw Dr. Rudy Nydegger he is a very nice man to talk to. I have one more dr. to see and I think thats it. Almost there I'm happy and scared all at the same time.
2/9/07
Today I saw Dr. Mika he is an endocrinologist and he also was a nice Dr. to talk to. Well the last thing to do is go to Dr. Lirio's office and pick up my Medifast. I see my own Dr. witch is Dr. Matt Pender I will see him on March 6th and I need to ask him about this lump in my stomach. Dr. Mika said it just might be a hernia but that I needed to tell my Doctor and Dr. Lirio so thats what i will do.
.2/16/07
well i'm just sitting here at work thinking about having my surgery and i can't wait and i'm scared all at the same time. I just don't want to die I want to live and be healthly and be with my kids and husband. My girlfriend said to me don't worry if you die you wont even know and she has a point. I guess i just worry so much because so many things are going in the right direction for me that i can't belive it will all happen and go smooth. I 'm going to have surgery and the house is up for sale and we are going to get out of here like i have been asking for about 10 years now.
2/19/07
Back again well I have had a crazy weekend my friend went into the hospital and then the next day my mom did. I called my daughter to let her know what was going on and to let her know that everything is just fine. I really miss her a lot she is my best friend and my daughter. I have so much fun with her she is a good girl I'm so proud of her.I have 2 other children also and they are so good to me also I really am blessed. I just wish april would get here the waiting is to much sometimes.
2/20/07
O.k. Where to start for today my mom is till in the hospital I had to bring my kids to work with me. Thank god I have such a great boss he is so good to me he himself is a family man and knows what it is like sometimes. My girlfriend will be in the hospital for at least a week myself and some of my other friends are going to see her tonight. I have been joking around with my husband and telling him when I have to do the medifast I will have to stay in our room and there is no way I'm cooking. I hope God gives me the strength to make it trough the 3 weeks I have to do that.
2/22/07
Hello everyone well i just sent out some e-mails that i thought needed to be sent. it is a little cold today wish it was past April and then I would be sitting in Florida where it is warm. I want to be sitting on the beach just watching the waves.I have 3 more weeks till my daughter comes home I can't wait to see her. I have been with out my welbutrin for a couple of days and I can feel it, can't wait to get that tonight.
2/27/07
Hello it has been five days a lot has gone on in that time.I opened my daughters e-mail because of what she said to me that day I just knew something was not right and i was right she wrote something that broke my heart and I asked her about it. She gave me her reason we cried like babies and I just thought to myself how sad for her that she thought that she needed to hurt someone else just for another person to like her. But we are past that I told her that I'm her mother and no matter what she wrote I would always love her she's my baby. Well now that is off my chest. I keep thinking about the medifast how in gods name am I going to just have a shake and water for 3 weeks??? If I could do that wouldn't i already be thin? I really hope i can do this.
2/28/07
I talked to my Daughter today that always make's me happy.I do wish it was April 11th right now I just want to get it over with my 2 little ones know about my surgery and they sometimes ask me questions and they want me to promise them everything will be just fine. I do that I just hope i'm doing the right thing by telling them that. they are 10 and 11 and sometimes they here me and my husband talk about it.
3/3/07
well i have 2 weeks till medifast and a total of five weeks till my surgery. I keep looking at all the before and after pic and can't wait till one day mine is on there. I have met some really nice people on here and I wish you all nothing but the best.
3/8/07
Well I have 8 days till my daughter comes home and I can't wait for that. I have nine days till I start the medifast god help me.It seem's like it is taking forever for the 11th to get here.
3/12/07
Hello everyone I have four more days till I start my medifast and I'm not sure how it is going to go but i know i better stick to it if i plan on surgery on the 11th of april right.I have no bad feelings about any of this I just wish I was already on the other side.
3/14/07
O.k. tonight is the last night I can eat and boy have i been eating. Why is it such a big deal to me to eat? I think my sugar must have been 430 today I'm not proud of myself I'm just not thinking right now I guess. I need to be in a different mind set and I need to find it fast. I want to thank all of you on OH for writing your stories and for the friends I have made. I know I have to be strong for all of us that are doing this now and for the ones to come.
