cau_lady
So pretty much I have been fat my entire life. I really started to notice it in 4th grade when I was 115 lbs. My ex step mother found it necessary to constantly remind me that I was too fat for my age. While skinny brother was able to eat whatever he wanted I was being restricted even with MY OWN BIRTHDAY CAKE, which everyone ate up and I got one little piece. Ok I was young as hell and I did not know I was overweight until that witch made it clear....lol . Anyway I ended up moving back with my mom and I kept gaining and gaining, and gaining some more. I was doing several diets throughout this time, but what kid or teen sticks to a diet. It seemed crazy to me that all my skinnny friends and family could eat whatever the hell they wanted and many times more than me and gain nothing!. I went through highschool single as hell, college the same. Here I am 23 and I have never had a man. I would say my self-esteem is the highest it has ever been right now. For a long time it was exxtremely low to the point where I attempted suicide. Most of the reasons why were because of my weight. I would do these stupid ass diets, lose 50 pounds and gain 75 to 100. Go out to the club and get rejected for a dance by being pushed. Go to the mall and help my friends buy shit because there was nothing for me, used to drink everyday to ease the pain, allowed men to treat me like crap and convinced myself that I deserved it because I was fat. Wow that was me. Now I am still fat but I am much happier. I made the decision to get this band because I kept gaining and made it to 352 lbs at 5 foot 6. I am happy I made the decision!
April.-2008
275 lbs
July-2008
250 lbs
Oct-2008
225 lbs
Jan.-2009
200 lbs
Apr.-2009
175 lbs
MY GOALS:
