Michelle C.
Hello everyone! I'm Michelle. 33 years old, married to Rick and momma to Ryan, Matthew and Joshua. I have been overweight since puberty. Even more so since becoming a mother. My BMI is currently 42.6. I'm 5'6" and weigh 262 pounds. I am hoping to have WLS, but so far I am just hitting wall after wall.
At first, I was wanting RNY, but after so many denials with my previous insurer, I figured I'd go with something that our new insurance company covers which is Lap Band. Not exactly my first choice, but right now I have to take what I can get, right?
I have been so depressed lately, just waiting for the chance to finally get this show started and be on my way to the healthier version of me. I am trying not to get my hopes up. When I tried to get RNY a few years ago and the insurance company (BCBS of GA) called it a "cosmetic" procedure and refused to cover it even after 3 appeals, all I could do was cry. My BMI back then was 38, but I had the co-morbidities that qualified me, they just simply refused. Now I'm a lot heavier and in worse health than I was. I would prefer the RNY or the Sleeve Gastrectomy, but if I can at least get the Band, then I'll make due with that.
Like many of you, I have been on too many diets to list here. I would lose a little just to gain it right back plus some. I am sick of being the fat mom that doesn't go to her kids' school events so my sons don't get picked on. I'm sick of not going to the beach because of the rude ass people there. I live in Brunswick, Ga - our beach is St. Simon's Island - home to some of the snobbiest and rudest people on earth. If you aren't a size 12 or smaller then you are picked on terribly, by ADULTS! My kids never ask to go to the beach because they know how I feel when I go there, and I hate that I have caused them to miss out on so much fun. My friends have always told me to ignore the snide remarks, but do people ever really ignore things that are so painful? Ignore it all you want, but you know you still heard it... and so did your kids.
We are waiting for the new insurance cards to come in. Hubby just signed up for this insurance through the fire department after we moved back to town. When they come, I will go back to the doctor that I used before we moved out of town 5 years ago. He still has my medical records from back then, and they contain my battle with weight loss. That way it won't take so long for the initial phase. Then I know about waiting to see if the insurer will grant me three wishes... I hate that our lives are dictated by someone sitting in an office with a pretty view, and not by the doctors that say we need this surgery to live...
