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I am glad Christmas is about over. I usually enjoy the holidays but i am trying very hard to stay away from all the bad food, which is not easy. I have my psych eval in a few weeks. So glad to be moving further along in the process. I finish up with my 6 months in february. Funny but i dont think  i have worked so hard at anything in my life but i want this surgery. I want to be healthy and free. Not much longer now. Gotta keep my eye on the prize.

I have been off the  site for awhile, I have been somewhat depressed because of the holidays. I am not spending time with my friend food. God knows I miss all the holiday eating and drinking. I think every get together revolves around yummy food. I have lost another ten pounds since thanksgiving, which is a miracle. I so wanted to binge eat, but didnt. I have two months left of my dieting before my insurnace gives its approval. I am learning alot about myself during these 6 months. I am finding a strength I didn't know  i had. I have been keeping my eye on the prize, my weight loss surgery. I have also tried encourging my sister and cousin to join me on my dieting. They want to wait until the new year which is what i use to  do. I always had good intentions but it never lasted long. At least i have my wonderful friends here on obesityhelp. You are a great bunch of friends. Hurry up holidays and get  over. Is there a holiday that doesn't involve food?? LOL Not with my family. I will bring the  vege platter this year. I cant wait to hear the comments. Well Merry Christmas to all my frends here. I appreciate each one of you. Best wishes to each of you of your weightloss jorney.  Christi

Well I survived thanksgiving and now christmas is on the horizon. Once December is here i will have 2 months to go on my 6 months of dieting. Unfortunately i did not do so well on dieting thus far. I cant go to the gym because i took a fall and have had to stay off my feet for awhile. Then i got depressed and started eating stuff not on my diet. Feeling like a failure. I am afraid the next 2 months will go way too slow and with winter here getting to the gym may get harder and harder. I am excited for my sister in law who is having lapband surgery on thursday. Wish it was time for mine. Gotta hang in there but it is getting harder.

I have been asked many times if I am excited to see the woman underneath? I have dreamed about her most of life but I have no idea what I will look like at a normal weight. I have been a large woman for as long as I can remember. I love looking at everyones before and after pictures. I wonder what mine will look like. It doesn't  seem real that surgery is evan in my future. I thought I would always be this size and that I would die from it. Not that I want to but I haven't ever been able to lose more than a few pounds here or there. Now I am looking down the road with hope. My king, my husband Tony, has been my strongest supporter. He doesnt see the fat, rather he already sees the me underneath. He is worth his weight in gold. Thank you sugar!!! Now I have to hold on until feburary 4 which is the end of my 6 months of dieting. Submit all to insurance company then wait for a surgery date. Hurry up and get here already!!!

I had my 3 month appointment with the dietician yesterday. I left his office very pumped up. He is helping me rethink my relationship with food. I slacked off at the gmy for a few days but getting back on that horse. Driving 35 miles to they gym makes it a little more challenging but I want to have my surgery so I will do whatever it takes to make it happen. I am working on my plan for thanksgiving so that I can enjoy the day but not cheat on the dieting. I hate that the holidays in my family center around food. They are going to experince some new food recipes using healthy ingredients instead of all the fat and calories. Wonder if they will try them??? Some time in December I have to have my Psych eval. Whats silly about that is I already see a councilor on a regular basis but I guess that doesn't count so I have to spill my feelings out to another person who doesn''t evan know me.  Its all part of the process,,,I gotta remember that!!!

A friend of a friend who has had weight loss surgery twice now is trying to talk me out of surgery.  She had her surgery eight years ago and again four years ago and lost alot of weight only to put it back on again,,she is up to a 2x again. She says i should forget surgery and do it myself but what she doesnt realize is that I would if I could. I need the assistance that weight loss surgery could provide. Now I am very confused. I sooooo want to be healthy. She is a sweetie for giving me the advice but I think I still want the surgery.

Today was not a good day. I called the insurance specialist at my surgeons office to find out whats going on. She didnt return my call so my hubby called an raised some heck. It seems like they don't have time to answer my questions now so I am wondering if I need to find another surgeon. I had Doctor Perry from Surgical Institute in Sioux Falls. Wondering if anyone has an idea who to try in this area of Minnesota? Grrrrr. Not sure what to do now......

Day 2 at the gym. I have more sore body parts than I can name. My personal trainer gave me some ideas to try on my workout. He said not to do a total work out everyday but rather work one day on the lower half of the body then the next day work on the upper half..rest the other half. My lower half wishes the upper half of me would take more of the days so it can rest....lol  Funny but I don't feel so self concious at the gym. I have my mind made up that no matter what I am going to succeed. I cannot use some of the equipment but thats ok, I use what i can. Maybe I can build a little muscle before surgery.  Just not sure what muscle is anymore,,,been far too long since I had any!! Well my weight loss journey is taking some interesting twists and turns. Hopefully it will all end well.

Went to the gym for the first time yesterday as part of my 6 month documented weight loss before i qualify for surgery. I thought i was going to die.  My husband and my trainer both are such great people to have cheering me on. I know this is only the beginning of my weight loss journey. I could hardly walk after leaving the gym, but i felt like i had accomplished something for the first time in a long time.  I want to succeed.  A month from now i hope i will still feel the same way.  Maybe between the dietician and the gym i will get ready for the surgery physically and mentally.  Thanks for being a listening ear.