Everything is Different

Jan 03, 2009

As I was researching weight loss surgery and soon after surgery, I could not imagine why anyone significantly overweight would not opt to have the surgery.  It was my perfect solution to weight loss and I figured it was perfect for everyone else too.  Now - almost 8 months later - I have a better understanding of why WLS is not for everyone.  Everything about your physical being is different.  Even though you notice the physical changes as they happen it does seem to happen overnight.  You go from not fitting into booths in restaurants to not even being concerned about where the hostess sits you.  It is foreign to no longer worry.  In fact you may start to worry about it and then realize it is not worth it because you fit and then it gives you a reason to reflect upon your journey which then takes you through a cycle of emotions - all because you were going to sit down in a restaurant. If you are not psychologically ready for the journey then don't do it.  Half the battle is learning how to eat again...the other half is learning how to live when everything is different.  

I hear it all the time that people change because of WLS.  Well my take on it is this - I live differently because everything is different.  I didn't necessarily change who I am as a person but instead I have changed how I live.   I am no longer a spectator of my life - I am my life.  I am all those thoughts, desires and actions I had when I had a body too big to carry them out because I didn't have the energy.  

As I stated before, I have noticed many differences throughout the last 8 months but my most significant one as of late is hugging.  I never went in for a hug chest to chest.  I always gave you a side hug uncomfortable with and individual holding my size.  Well now I find individuals going for a hug will turn me into them and squeeze and I fit.  I fit in the arms of my friends all the way to the arms of my cousin's children.  Everything is different!!

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