Glo Teacher
Gaining, Gaining, Gaining!
May 02, 2009
It's been almost a month since I started gaining back weight. To date, I have gained back 17 pounds back at only ten months out. I have returned to my pre-surgery behaviors and have almost given up on myself. I have had good intentions every morning but give into binging and laziness. At this rate, all my weight will be back in a couple of months. I attend two support groups and occasionally exercise. I have developed a "why bother" attitude.
I am embarrassed because I know that people are noticing the gain. I just don't seem to have any control over my behavior. I don't know what to do. No, I do know what to do but I don't do it. I don't understand why not.
I see so may others on this website reaching their goal weights at about this time but I just gain. I question my desire. Do I want to do this or is it easier to just be fat? Can I turn this around before the rest of the 86 pounds comes back on.
I just want to escape reality and sleep my life away but then I think about my sons. One is heading down the same path as me and follows my lead. I have to start setting a good example. How will I muster up the desire?!
I did walk 3 miles today. But the eating was still out of control. It was, however, better from yesterday. I have a plan to start the five day pouch test on Saturday if I can find find the commitment to prepare for it.
Can I turn this around?...
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I am embarrassed because I know that people are noticing the gain. I just don't seem to have any control over my behavior. I don't know what to do. No, I do know what to do but I don't do it. I don't understand why not.
I see so may others on this website reaching their goal weights at about this time but I just gain. I question my desire. Do I want to do this or is it easier to just be fat? Can I turn this around before the rest of the 86 pounds comes back on.
I just want to escape reality and sleep my life away but then I think about my sons. One is heading down the same path as me and follows my lead. I have to start setting a good example. How will I muster up the desire?!
I did walk 3 miles today. But the eating was still out of control. It was, however, better from yesterday. I have a plan to start the five day pouch test on Saturday if I can find find the commitment to prepare for it.
Can I turn this around?...
About Me
Medford, NY
Location
34.4
BMI
Surgery
07/09/2008
Surgery Date
Jul 06, 2008
Member Since
