coyoteskye
guess it's been awhile
Feb 20, 2011
Much has changed since the last time I wrote anything on here, like 5 months ago. Still the same size physically, nothing really ever changes there, but now I'm working full time. That alone is a major undertaking everyday. Not loving the job and can't wait to be able to move on, just biding my time and trying to trudge through each day.
The good news is: Because of said job, as of February 1st, I now have better health insurance than before. AND, the best part about the health insurance I have now is that my bff, who had wls in march 2010, had her surgery covered under the same insurance I'm now on!
So....I have an appointment with Dr. Gange on March 4th and I am scared shitless. Not exactly sure why I'm so afraid of this whole process, just everytime I think about going to that appointment, I feel pretty panicky. Probably it's just fear of the unknown, fear of changing old habits and having to really fix everything that's wrong with my lifestyle. Time now to attempt to focus on the eventual outcome, a thin, beautiful, healthier me!
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The good news is: Because of said job, as of February 1st, I now have better health insurance than before. AND, the best part about the health insurance I have now is that my bff, who had wls in march 2010, had her surgery covered under the same insurance I'm now on!
So....I have an appointment with Dr. Gange on March 4th and I am scared shitless. Not exactly sure why I'm so afraid of this whole process, just everytime I think about going to that appointment, I feel pretty panicky. Probably it's just fear of the unknown, fear of changing old habits and having to really fix everything that's wrong with my lifestyle. Time now to attempt to focus on the eventual outcome, a thin, beautiful, healthier me!
GRRRRRR
Sep 01, 2010
So much for the co-morbidities. The doctor's office called today to tell me that all my blood work came back normal. Oh lucky friggin' me! So glad I'm so "healthy."
I'm so healthy that I pee myself all the time, can't breathe when doing more than a moment of exertion, walked at the mall today and had terrible pain in my ankles, feet and back, and wake up a bunch of times every night tossing and turning and am therefore tired all the time.
Oh yeah, did I mention the overwhelming feelings of sadness and helplessness coupled with extreme irritability and tears at inappropriate times? Most would call that depression. No biggy, insurance fucks, I'll just 'get over it.'
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I'm so healthy that I pee myself all the time, can't breathe when doing more than a moment of exertion, walked at the mall today and had terrible pain in my ankles, feet and back, and wake up a bunch of times every night tossing and turning and am therefore tired all the time.
Oh yeah, did I mention the overwhelming feelings of sadness and helplessness coupled with extreme irritability and tears at inappropriate times? Most would call that depression. No biggy, insurance fucks, I'll just 'get over it.'
In the beginning....
Aug 30, 2010
There was me and my fat ass...lol! I took my fat ass to the doctor last week in the hopes of discussing my weight and whether or not she thought I'd be able to get gastric bypass. My aunt and my best friend both had surgeries this past spring and as happy for them as I am, I am also one jealous girl!
Doctor said she would definitely consider me a candidate for surgery because my BMI is 45 but that the insurance company would need an obesity-related complication in order to cover the surgery. REALLY???? Like my life completely sucking because of my weight isn't enough of an obesity-related complication?
So I did the whole, go for blood test nonsense. My blood pressure was perfect in the office, so that's not going to help me get anywhere. Hopefully the little bit of oatmeal I had the morning of the blood test will help the blood sugar level be just high enough to qualify me for coverage, yet not make me have to be on medication until then.
I go back to the doctor on September 13th. I cannot wait for that day! I am so over this whole, "my body is falling apart and I feel like shit all the time" business. I really would love to be able to take a walk without huffing and puffing, or ride a roller coaster again :(
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Doctor said she would definitely consider me a candidate for surgery because my BMI is 45 but that the insurance company would need an obesity-related complication in order to cover the surgery. REALLY???? Like my life completely sucking because of my weight isn't enough of an obesity-related complication?
So I did the whole, go for blood test nonsense. My blood pressure was perfect in the office, so that's not going to help me get anywhere. Hopefully the little bit of oatmeal I had the morning of the blood test will help the blood sugar level be just high enough to qualify me for coverage, yet not make me have to be on medication until then.
I go back to the doctor on September 13th. I cannot wait for that day! I am so over this whole, "my body is falling apart and I feel like shit all the time" business. I really would love to be able to take a walk without huffing and puffing, or ride a roller coaster again :(
