CreativeNative
I am really needing to do this .. I am having so much pain associated with the weight now.
I have had hernia surgery w/mesh in the past and am totally terrified of doctors... surgery and tests.
I need to find a good doc that will listen and not judge and actually thinks I know something about my own body.
June 8, 2004 ~
Went to a new doctor today. She was the sweetest thing! She listened to me and is ready to help. She said from the looks of things I am a very good candidate for sugery. She knew about lap band (my old doc never heard of it.. *rolleyes*) and seemed excited for me and understood my being to fearful ...nah TERRIFIED of doctors and surgery. *lol*
I told her I felt my thyroid was shut down again and about the history there.. (docs not listening and just keep upping my dose of synthroid when it was symptoms of other things going on I was describing...*rolleyes*)She is having me come in this coming Tuesday for complete blood work up. (fasting tests) She said that way we wil know what direction to go with meds or not. Sounds good to me. She said she would look for surgeons in the area and get in touch with them then have them contact me. I told her about the site here and how it has helped me and how I had found some surgeons names here. ; )
June 11 ~
Surgeons office called. Have an appointment set up for the 27th.. wow.. Have to take a completed packet with me that they are mailing. When I go I'll view a hour long video..They will gather info.. then I talk to him.
I was so nervous to talk to them I forgot to ask any questions. DUH! Anyway, I caught it and called back. I asked if he did lap band and she said yes they do.. (thank god! one worry taken care of! ) I also asked if there were any counterindications of why they couldn't do a lap band on someone. She said if I was 65 (nope.) And if I weighed over 455. (lord I hope not.. don't think so.. nah.. not that much.. I know it's been awhile since I have been weighed but still...) Oh well.. I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. I have enough troubles and worries in today to be concerned about borrowing some from tomorrow! ; )
October 26,2004 ~
Guess I'll be like almost everyone else and start this entry with... Wow.. I can't believe how much time has passed since I've last updated! *lol*
Quite a bit has happened since June. Went to the surgeon's appt. Ok... I got chicken and cancelled a couple of times but I finally made it and that is what counts....right?
The hubby went with me and watched the hour long video. It was really a good thing he did. That helped him to understand what the heck is going on and what will go on in the future. Heck, he even asked a question to the surgeon after it was over.
I had my physical screening. Had to go get weighed at the hospital. God, I hated that! First off it was a hell of a long walk and I was in so much pain and huffing that I thought I was going to pass out. Went back and this cute little orderly weighed me. He kept asking me if I was alright and I huffed out .."no" but I'll be ok after I get this done. Got the weight. Came home and told my good friend Linda Pamonicutt (from this board who is still going through hell to try to get her wls over with.) that I got weighed. She asked "so kid...how much?" (funny her calling me kid when I'm older than she is! *lol*) I told her I weighted 199.6 she said "yeah..right." So then I told her it was in KILOS!! :-O That figures out to 432lbs. Dang..where did all that come from?? Last time I got a weight at the docs was at 347 about 11 or 12yrs ago!
So.. after that shock had my physc evaluation. Thought for sure they would confirm everyones suspisions of my not being right in the head. They said it would take about an hour or hour and a half to go through it. I was so nervous about going. I hate going to an unfamiliar place, with unfamiliar people. Well I went back.. answered some questions then she said everything was ok and I could leave. She said I was a very good candidate for surgery. On the way out she said I passed with flying colors! Woo hoo! Oh... forgot to tell you how long it took from the time I walked back to her office until I left... it was 15 minutes!!!Wow! I was really shocked. She liked my answers and my body language. Said that while I am aware of my part of this surgery helping me to gain control I have no unrealistic expectations or illusions.
May 19th '05.......
Wow...... boy do I neglect this page huh? *lol* I'll try to fill some background info as I can but for now I wanted to give an update. I went for another fill today. The doc was so pleased and the nurse hugged me!! I had lost 14lbs in less than my six weeks! Wooooo hooooo!! That makes it a total since surgery of.....drum roll........ 51lbs!! I'm at 381!!*doin happy dance* :-D
I was told I'm 1/3 way to goal and that is unusual only being 5 mos out! This lead to a "lightbulb moment"..... I was about to tell myself that .....hm..... maybe I can do this. Then my "inner voice" told me..... YOU ARE doing this!!! Can't tell ya how good I felt in that moment!
I'm slowly but surely gaining mobility. I had the best shower I have had in years the other day..... NO PAIN! I stood the whole time without hurting so bad I would have to cut the shower short. I was able to bend over and wash my toes without having to rely on a brush or something. And yeah.... I could wash all other areas without assistance also! *lol* Ohhhhh like you don't know what I'm talking about! :-P
April 13th, 2008
Wow.... can you believe it has been this long??? Damn... time flies. I'll try to fill you in on what all has happened in a Reader's Digest condensed version and fill some things in later.
I'm currently down to 363. May not seem lots to some people but right now I'll take all I can get!!! Thank the creator that I've lost THAT much!!
Lemme see..... I had some problems....... had gallbladder surgery..... Had more problems... had cancer surgery..... Had more problems... had kidney stone surgery. Hundreds of tests later.... I'm now on the right track I believe. I'm getting back in touch with the basics and feels like I'm starting over. Only ya know what??? .... this time I'm starting out at 363 instead of 432!!!! Woooooooo Hooooooo!!
As for the cancer surgery (don't wanna leave you hanging...*lol* ) I had so many problems and pain. My PCP made me go to a Ob/Gyn.... well he didn't MAKE me. He said well it's up to you but to be honest with you women your age that have bleeding after a time of none it usually points to cancer. Well .. that got my butt moving I'll tell ya. I went.... and was sent for a ultra-sound. Well it wasn't good.
Surgery was planned and I had dear Dr. Ray invited to assist since he is the one that knew me so well ( the lap band and gall bladder surgeries before).
Everything went great..... I had a complete hysterectomy. EVERYTHING is gone in there. Also gone is a 10 lb and over 10" malignant tumor. ( that's the diameter over the size of a medium pizza! ) Even my babies didn't weigh that much!! *lol* Praise God it was a self-contained tumor so that means surgery made me cancer free!!! I am 1A!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!