Gained 20 lbs back after sleeve- Feeling hopeless

Jan 11, 2012

Hello Everyone,

It has been well over a year since I posted anything on here but so much has happened in my life.  Okay, here it is in a nutshell. I had the surgery in November of 2009. I was so excited because in less than 6 months I had lost 80lbs. My starting weight was 267 lbs (size 20) and my lowest was 175 lbs. (8-10). Then in May of 2009 my husband and I were nearing our 9 year wedding anniversary when we separated.  After that, I moved back in with my parents and went into a depression.  I was on the verge of losing my job and I went from exercising 5-6 times a week to ZERO and opened the flood gate to SWEETS i.e. sweet breads, chocolate, pretty much dealing with those all too familiar food habits. 

Now fast forward to 2011...like Gloria Estefan said it in her song, I finally feel like "I'm coming out of the dark..." Things are starting to look up although we have now filed for divorce and I have gained 20 lbs., I moved out of my parents, work is back on track and just last week, I forced myself to face the relaity that if I don't control my weight that I could very well rewind myself back to 2009 when I noticed clothes that once fit me very loose is now tight, not snug but TIGHT!  I'm just now starting to want to eat healthier (focus on the protein & water) however, I still have the strong craving for sweets. I feel like I failed.  I feel tired and don't have a lot of energy at the end of the day.  Am I alone? Have I failed?

In need of supportive friends...
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Does Sleeve = Divorce?

Jun 17, 2010

 

Hi everyone!

Well it's been months since I've been online.  So many things have happen in my life after the sleeve.  June 21st will be my 7th month anniversary and have started to slow down in my weight loss.  To date, I've lost about 85 pounds.  Because of the personal problems and work travel I have stopped exercising and have been eating poorly.  The stress along with the sleeve has caused my hair to thin but I'll be honest, I haven't been taking my vitamins so, that's my fault.

Marriage on the rocks

My husband and I have separated for a few reasons.  During my heaviest weight before the surgery we had literally stopped having sex for 8 months, which put me in a panic.  Random thoughts running through my mind "what is he doing, don't all men need it?"  The kisses became childish pecks and the affection became more of a nuisance to him than a sign of my love.  Well, needless to say, the weight came off and the affection and sex drive on his part was back, what you know.  Then the resentment on my part starting showing and I wondered if the kisses and public affection I was putting out was more for show.  People look at us and think "you guys are perfect together!"  It all came to a halt on New Year’s 2010 when we kissed and slow danced that I realized...my feelings had changed for him because he had rejected me.  We started talking and it did come out that the reason for the lack of sex and affection on his part was because he was not attracted to me at that time but that he always loved me.  Isn't love unconditional?  For me it is... fat, thin, bald I love completely.  I began looking for that emotional connection with others and felt even worse because it was suppose to be my husband to give me this.  It was then that I knew our marriage was in shambles and walked out about a month ago. 

My question, has anyone else's marriage been affected by the sleeve or have past issues that you may have overlooked now stare you squarely in the face?

Lost and confused...
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4 Months Out Down 80lbs!!!

Mar 17, 2010

Hello!!

Let me just start by saying thank goodness for Dr. Aceves and for the VSG!!!  March 21st will be my 4 month anniversary and I am very excited to share that to date I have lost 80 lbs. I started at 267 lbs and am now at 187 lbs, finally under 200 lbs!!!! I have gone from a size 20 to a size 10!  Unbelieveable!  I continue to workout 5-6 times a week at a high intesity, stay away from soft drinks, nibble here and there on the sweet stuff but not as much as I use to.  I also have cut back on crabs drastically.  I continue to drink water, take my vitamins, enjoy my protein shakes in the morning, tuna in the afternoon with a few crackers and a light dinner but I always start or end my day at the gym.  I went in February to get my physical done with my doctor and she could not believe the amount of weight I had lost. All of my tests came back with flying colors and she wanted to know more about the VSG since she had never heard of it.  Needless to say, the sleep apnea has gone, bye, bye, I sleep much better, lower back pain gone and knee pain...so long!  I feel great!!


Workout Schedule (5-6 Times a week)
Warm-up 7 minute bike warm up at high intesity
Stretch  10 minute stretch
30 minutes on 15 or 20 level on the Elyptical follwed by the 5 min cool down at at 10 level
10 minute stretch
Strength training 3 reps of 24 (back, legs, chest varies throughout week)

*Please note I refrain from beverages 30 minuutes before and 30 minutes after a meal. 
*Also, when I do have a dessert, I wait 30-40 minutes to make sure I'm not stuffing myself

Meals
M-F
B-fast
Water bottle first thing
Protein shake
Lunch
Tuna and crackers
Dinner
Lean Cuisine, 3-4 oz of salmon or cereal
Dessert
Sugar-free popsicles or 4 wheat crackers w strawberry jelly
Water

Saturday/Sunday
Breakfast

Water
Protein shake or cereal
Lunch
Tuna or slices of turkey
Dinner
Free dinner (still in small moderation/chicken or fish)
Dessert
Sugar-free popsicle or small fruit parfait

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Three days sleeved

Nov 24, 2009

Hi again, I was sleeved on November 21st with Dr. Aceves in Mexicali, CA.  It was quite a difficult decision for me because although overweight for the great part of my life, I was fine with it, that is until my back pain started to take a turn for the worse, sleep apnea and my knees got worse.  It was more of a health decision rather than a luxury such as a breast augmentation.  Saturday and Sunday were pretty bad days for me with dry heaves on and off.  The blue liquid taste like grape juice which wasn't bad at all.  On Monday, I did the drink test to see my new stomach and as ridiculous as it sounds, I started crying.  Seeing the new x-ray just really knocked me into reality.  I couldn't believe what I had done to myself.  Dr. Campos and Dr. Aceves at Almater were amazing as they comforted me and reassured me that in 3 months I'd be singing a different tune.  In the evening both doctors came to my room to check on how I was feeling and again reassured me that I had made the right decision.  I knew then that by selecting Dr. Aceves and Dr. Campos as my doctors was the best decision possible.  

I am three days out and this is day two of my liquid diet.  I've been surrounded by a lot of temptation. I never realized the key role that food plays in our lives, celebrations, television, billboards etc.  I've been slowly progressing and doing my best to avoid the evil temptations of steak, chicken, bread, potatoes, Twinkies which should be quite interesting especially with Thanksgiving around the corner.  Can you believe I am actually looking forward to the puree stage?  Now you know I'm desperate! LOL
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Less than a week before surgery

Nov 15, 2009

Hello!  It seems that with every minute that flys by, I grow more and more anxious about my surgery.  It just hit me on Friday of last week that I was about a week out.  Just typing it here makes my stomach start to girgle.

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About Me
Azusa, CA
Location
30.7
BMI
VSG
Surgery
11/21/2009
Surgery Date
Sep 30, 2009
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