I AM HERE!!!

Feb 03, 2009

Well, I the big day is almost here.  Right now I am sitting in a room at the Rathgeber House (a really nice hospitality house) across the street from the hospital where my lap band surgery is to take place tomorrow.  Today was a really busy day.  It started with my preadmission appointment at the hospital.  I had a slight scare as the nurse sent my EKG out to be read by someone else.  She assured me that everything was fine, but she just wanted someone else to take a look at it.  A little scary.....but everything turned out ok.  Then I was off to a 3 hour nutrition class at my surgeon's office.  The class was GREAT!!  I learned a lot.  I was really glad that my husband attended with me so that I did not have to go and explain everything to him.  Then I had my pre-op appt with my surgeon.  All clear.  I was down 11lbs so I was very happy about that because I had not done everything the way I was supposed to.  Also, cheated on the clear liquids, but it was really a learning experience.  I had given my son a small bag of cheetos and before I knew it, I had popped a few in my mouth.  Boy did I savor those, but I felt really bad about it afterwards because I was like, how can I expect to succeed if I can't even do this for two days!  But I quickly got over it as I realized that I am not strong enough to be around things that I am not supposed to have.  I just hope that Dr. Warnock won't see them floating around in my stomach since before I started the clear liquids I had to drink a bottle of magnesium citrate to completely clean out my system! 

So now I am here experiencing a plethora of emotions as I come to grips with my new way of eating.  I think the clear liquid phase is going to be really hard for me. Although chicken broth is quite tasty, I think I may tire of it quickly.  I think I 'd be able to deal with the full liquids a little better and I think I will do really well with the mushies.  I am all about flavor, not too much on sweets, so once I am able to eat pureed chicken I think I will be fine. 

I sure feel like I am in food "mourning", but then when I think about how beneficial wls will be to me and my quality of life, I get motivated all over again!

I will be doing a lot of praying.....

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