daisymom
I was never really overweight until I got to college- that was in the early 90s. I started gaining in 1995 and then it continued to climb. By 2003, I had reached 361 lbs, so I started researching WLS. I decided on gastric bypass, and in Sept of 2003, I had the RNY. By December 2005, I had lost down to about 217ish. That was my lowest weight. I started gaining in 2006, but I thought a couple of pounds wouldn't hurt. Well, the weight kept piling on, and I was too ashamed to call the surgeon who did my RNY, so I did nothing. It was so easy to go back to my old eating habits especially when I figured out I could tolerate regular sugar. So, here it is 6 years later, and I now weigh more than I did before I had the gastric bypass. I feel like a total failure for allowing myself to gain all the weight back.
I've started researching revision surgeries and came across information about DS. I believe this is the option for me. I found a surgeon in Charlotte, NC, and my consultation with him is in July 2009. I went to his seminar and filled out the patient packet. I'm so scared my insurance won't cover it since I've already had WLS once in my lifetime. I will have to wait and see what the surgeon says. I'm also scared he won't operate on me since I weigh so much; I just have all these fears.
I have sleep apnea and use a CPAP machine, and I am on many anti-depressants. I want to be a normal person with a normal body. I want to be treated the same way as the skinny girl next to me. I want to sleep without having to put a gosh darn mask on my face. Just want to be normal like I was when I was a teenager!
I'm happy I found this website. I have learned a great deal of information on here, and I have found out there are other people in the same boat as I am. I used to feel like I was so alone and there was nobody else who had experienced this same thing.
