Disappointed

Jan 02, 2011

Im really disappointed in myself. When I origionally had my surgery in '04 I made a huge deal over how I wouldnt gain the weight back and how I was going to stay on top of things and I would never be that person again - and I failed. I havent gained ALL of it back yet, Im still 60lbs shy of my heaviest (thankfully) but I am still WAY above where I want to me. I believe its a combination of not being active or as active as I should AND subconciously eating around discomfort and also way more calories than I should. I also havent been very good the last few years with taking my vitamins or drinking the water I should. So my new years resolution (or one of them) is to get back to where I was before (I'd like to lose 60lbs) and to do that I am keeping track of what I put in my mouth on myfitnesspal.com and I am being more active. I also have an appointment with my Dr at the end of the month because I want to discuss a revision because I do not have any of the dumping or feeling full reflexes that I had before so I am afraid that I stretched my pouch. Also the surgery made my blood sugar go completely crazy so I have to monitor that and lately it has been dropping more often than before. I am hoping that if I can stay motivated and lose some weight I will feel as good as I did before, less depressed over how I look and be able to totally rock a 2 piece this summer by the pool and at the beach.

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