Emily P.

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I feel like such a slave to the scale.  I weigh in every morning, but I have to be naked and have had nothing to eat or drink.  When I wrtie it it sound silly, but I know I am not the only one.  Today the scale said 250.0.  That is down 54 lbs since the begining of this journey.  I feel like I should have lost more, but it is what it is.  I am able to eat pretty normally now.  I stick with the protein first and don't drink until half an hour after or more.  I don't dump at all and sometimes I wish I would.  I only sometimes have problems with chicken going down and then I throw it up right away.  When my hubby and I go out I always order fish because I know it will stay down.  I still struggle with eating too fast, but that is getting much better because otherwise I feel sick.  I am starting to lose my hair, but nothing awful yet.  I guess I am rambling.  I will update in a few days when I feel like writing more.  

Emily

As of this morning I am down to 263 lbs.  That is 41 from my starting weight and 26 since surgery.  I am having trouble seeing the weight change, but it is the little things that I notice.  My watch, for instance, is not cutting into my skin.  In fact, it is really loose.  My daughter said to me the other day "Mommy, you don't have such a big back anymore"  (God bless my 7 year old).  I caught a rare glimpse of my collar bone, it has been missing for years.  My neck seems longer.  I thought the weight would just melt off, but I am working my rear end off to get that scale moving.  The gym is now my haven.  My next mini goal is to be 258 by Monday.  That may not be possible, but that is the weight I was when we moved here to MN 3 1/2 years ago.  I thought then I just couldn't get any fatter, boy was I in for a surprise:)

Until next time.....
Emily

I have had a really hard time over the last 2 weeks.  My scale has been going down VERY SLOWLY!!  As of this morning I weighed 271.  That is 18 lbs since surgery and 33 lbs since I began this journey.  I started excercising last week and found that to be very helpful.  I guess I am doing OK, but very impatient.  I just don't see any changes yet.  Yeah, my pants fit better, but I thought by losing 30 lbs I would at least go down a size.  I need to change my attitude a bit and just be glad that the scale is still going down. 

I went to see Dorothy today and I am down 12 lbs.  I guess I will take that.  I am still really having a hard time with the head hunger and am a little afraid to advance my diet because I have this fear that the pouch won't work. I just need to work through this.  According to MY scale I have lost a total of 29 lbs since I started this journey.  I am proud of that.  I know I have a long ways to go, but if I can conquer my demons, I will be just fine.  Thank God for this website!!!  Everyone is such a help!!

Surgery went fantastic on Monday.  I almost feel like I cheated.  I feel great and I think that is the reason I am having so much trouble with the head hunger now.  I feel like I want to try my new pouch out (which I have nicknamed Polly), but know what the ramifications of that could be.  Everything looks good though and the smells are killing me.  SO I continue to sit at the table and eat the couple of spoon fulls of Jello, while my kids eat yummy things like PIZZA!!  I knew going in that this was going to be my biggest obstical, but I guess I didn't know the draw would be this bad.  I did read the Weight Loss Surgery Book for Dummies and found it SOOOOOOOO helpful.  What a great resource.  The big weigh in day is MOnday, so I guess I will see how I have done.  I have had no problems getting down my fluids, so that is one positive.  

Emily

This is only day 2 of the liquid thing and I feel like I spend the whole day trying to keep as busy as posible so not to think about food.  I drink and pee ALL DAY!!!  The only good thing is that I got on the scale and I am down 9 lbs in 3 days.  How is that even possible??  I really could care less how, but I am loving it.  

My biggest obstical was over come today.  I took all my kids (yes all 4) to the Mall of America.  The got hungry for dinner and they wanted to eat at the Pizza Hut express.  Now, you have to understand that pizza is my FAVORITE food.  I mentally had to prepare myself to smell the smells and not have even a nibble.  Luckily I had enough foresight to bring a packet of carnation instant breakfast with me to the mall, so I was very happy to see that the Pizza Hut sold milk.  I am telling you I wanted to have a taste sooooo bad.  I felt really good about myself when I resisted.  

I hope that tomorrow is easier.  

 

The big surgery day is approching and I am very excited.  I am sure I will get more nervous, but I have such a great feeling going into this.  I start the liquid diet on Friday and hope to lose a few pounds before surgery which is March 26th.  I went to the original info meeting last June, so it has taken me a long time to decide that this is what I want.  I think my kids will benefit alot by having a mommy that can fit in a rollercoaster and has lots more energy.  My pre op with my regular doctor is tomorrow, so I hope that goes OK.