Happy 1 year to me

Feb 25, 2009

WOW how can it be that it has been 1 year since my surgery.  I am filled with emotion today as I look back at how far I have come in this year.  I have achieved most of my goals and erased most of my fears and I don't feel like that morbidly obese lady anymore.  I still have a way to go but I no longer fear that I will get there.  I weigh 192 today .... that means I have lost 121 pounds since my first doctor visit.  I am wearing size18 pants and XL tops.  I easily walk to my bus and no longer fear going up the steps.  I sometimes miss being able to eat with abandon but when those moments come...and they are very rare they only last a few seconds and then I laugh at the audacity of missing something so silly.  I like where I am right now but I am not finished yet and refuse to settle for this.  I want more....I want less of me....I love seeing the look in my husbands eyes when he looks at me but most of all I love how I feel.  I am slowly shedding that fat suit that has surrounded me for so long and I know that this is the last time....I know that this is forever and I will never go back to that old me....

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