elite52
I know I am a little late in telling my story, but I guess it's for good reason. I ALWAYS THOUGHT i WAS A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, AND HAD THE PERSONALITY TO GO WITH IT. So that covered up allot as far as my weight was concerned.Until that one day when I lost my husband and no one was there but me. Now I am from the old school, where your girlfriends or family members would stay with you until they feel you are Strong enough to go it alone....Ops! Not in my life time. So the only thing I can do was stay drunk or eat my way into sleep. I use to find myself sitting on the toilet nodding out(in the middle of the night), because when you eat and sleep you really don't. To make a long story short, I have been seeing a therapist since then, I was very depressed. Then came the doctors for the pain I was enduring, do to my weight.. I was covering up the "seeing the weight" with pain pills. That day finally came where my head was always bothering me . So I ask myself why are you taking these pills in the first place. My weight. No one had ever said anything except my doctors. How often did I see them? But then I realized that there was no one else. The day has come , where I looked into my china closet and HELLO, there it was my fat ass. I cry ed for about three days beating myself up for what I let happen to me. That's when I said to myself, its time for change. I analyzed my family, friends and Ha, what a joke. Then it came to ME again. So here I am since Aug. of 2010, for my birthday...I am going to do this. Went to the seminar and meant my doctor on Oct. 22ND. I almost got discouraged.But I held on....There is so much more but I don't have the space and I don't want to bore anyone.I have been good to myself ever since Oct 1st. My BMI was 54.2, 352lbs.....now it is BMI 52, 327 lbs. There is no stopping me now.I am back on the road to Sexy, funny , caring Rose , with a healthier view of things .........There are places I want to go and finding my place in this world....God has given me the courage to move on ......Thank you for this opportunity....Elite52
