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WELL ONE MORE YEAR THAT I WON'T BE CALLED MOMMY. MAN THAT HURTS. MY NUMBER ONE REASON FOR HAVING THIS SURGERY IS THAT I REALLY WANT TO BE HEALTHY ENOUGH TO HAVE A BABY. OF COURSE I WANT TO BE HEALTHY IN EVERY WAY AND I WANT TO LOOK GOOD BUT I WILL BE VERY VERY HAPPY THE DAY THAT MY NEWBORN BABY IS PLACED IN MY ARMS.. I HAVE WAITED AND WAITED ON THAT DAY.

I TOOK MY NANA OUT TONIGHT FOR DINNER AND MAYBE I JUST NEVER PAID ATTENTION BEFORE BUT MAN PEOPLE STARE AT ME WHILE I AM EATING!! I KNOW THAT IS SOMETHING *THEY* ( PEOPLE THAT DON'T HAVE WEIGHT PROBLEMS) DO  BUT MY GOSH !!! I AM A PERSON NOT A CIRCUS FREAK AND DON'T LOOK AT ME! ANYWAYS I JUST HAD TO RANT A LITTLE. I HAVE DECIDED TO WAIT UNTILL THE FIRST OF 09 TO HAVE THE SURGERY JUST BECAUSE THAT WILL GIVE ME SOME TIME TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF ON MY OWN AND MY HUBBY SAYS HE WILL FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT IF I LOSE 40 LBS ON MY OWN. I THINK I WILL HAVE BETTER RESULTS WITH THE SURGERY IF I AM DOWEN TO 240 WHEN I DO IT. I WOULDN'T BE ELIGIBLE FOR INS UNTILL SEPT OF THIS YEAR THEN I WOULD SPEND THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS IN THE FIRST STAGES OF THE SURGERY AND THAT IS NOT SOMETHING I WANT TO DO. I WOULD RATHER DO IT IN JANUARY .SO I AM HITTING IT TOMMOROW  WITH THE ATKINS I GUESS  I HATE THIS.. DIET AFTER STUPID DIET AND I FAIL EVERYTIME.  WELL WE WILL SEE
TILL NEXT TIME 
BRANDY

last night hubby and I were talking again about the surgery and he was like " I said I would think about it" how fair is that to me ?? I know the risks I am a open book about this surgery now and he is bieng COMPLETLEY unfair!! It started a big argument and I told him he was just trying to stay in control and to let it go. probley shouldn't have said that... Guys... Men.... What the heck?? any suggestions on how to handle this any futher?? Other than the past couple of weeks got along great throw this n the mix and it is like...Happily ever WHAT!!!! It is constant power struggle over this surgery. Any suggestions?
Thanks, 
Brandy

Found out that Eugenes (hubby)  insurance covers the surgery with 150 co pay then 10% of cost ! YAY!! He is of course not that excited about me doing this but I have come to a conclusion all surgeries have risk!! My biological clock is ticking and I want lots of kids maybe 5 or 6 so we need to get on the bandwagon with this!!  I of course am worried about the risk associated with this surgery to, but I feel like I have chosen the best surgeon and i trust him!! I have done the research I know what is involved I know I will never be able to go to a chinese buffet and eat three plates again. this is my health I want to live a long healthy life and this is the tool I want to use! I talked to my mom yesterday ( she has never had a weight problem ) at first she was VERY negative then she lightened up a bit when i told her I needed  her support. She likes to hear that I still need her i guess it made her feel good lol. Dad is like that surgery is dangerous!!!! you don't need that just excersize and eat healthy... all in all I really don't have ANY support everyone is just sooo negative.. but here is the thing My  Family is NOT overweight!!! none of them. 
but on the flipside of that Eugene is overweight along with his family and they are not even supportive of this. Any suggestions?? did any one else have this problem?? okay till next time
Brandy