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Nov 26,03
Went shopping this week for some new winter clothes which was fun ..uhh till i got to the fitting room anyway the wonderful size 26 i did wear no longer fit. I am thinking having to lay on the bed to button the size 26 jeans i had at home should of been a clue..haha..denial is a funny thing well trust me that size 28 made REALITY set in fast...lol but the part that puzzles me is I havent gained anymore weight I guess the weight i have needed somewhere to go... so my butt must have gotten the job! .. Well Happy Turkey Day Eve!

Dec 2,03
Well the puzzle has been solved of how I got into the size 28 overnight (yeah right).. I went to my PCP today and got on the scale 310.. that is my highest weight ever.. and hopefully it wont go any higher. This surgery cant come soon enough for me. She also told me I need to have an upper GI done thinks I might have an ulcer and need to see a specialist for my foot pain.. HEY HERE IS AN IDEA ...WLS... and all these little things will be taken care of?????????????. one can only hope anyway.
Lord be with me!

Dec 5,03
Had my upper GI done today wasnt much of a big deal they make you drink some awful tasting stuff while make you flip around 2 cups a white chalky stuff a cup of fizzy stuff and a cup of strawberry flavored stuff YUMMMM... NOT! I should get my results from my PCP sometime next week I will update then.

Dec 16,03
I had my second appointment today with Dr.S I GOT A DATE!!!
Nov 10,2004 i was pretty excited today. hope the time flys by I cant wait... I didnt hear anything from my PC about the upper Gi so I guess all is ok with that. Hey i even lost 5 pounds woohoo 305.

Jan 09,2004
I had my sleep study a few weeks ago wasnt that bad just didnt get to sleep very much being in a new place its hard for me to fall asleep and even harder when you have all theses wires hooked all over you.. I have an appointment in Feb to get the results but the tech did tell me that I stopped breathing a few times while sleeping I am not sure if it bad enough for a breathing machine i guess i will find that out in feb... would make alot of since if i did have the sleep apenea then it would explain why i am so tried all the time even when i just wake up ..

March 29, 04
I went for my second sleep study I have sleep apena so i have to get a CPAP machine ..OH Joy!! But I know it will help me feel better and have more engery and that gives me more time to do the things I love so it isnt all bad right?

April 8, 04
I just got home from the hospital on the 6th.. (my son's birthday) I was in for 4 days with Pneumonia thought i was gonna die i couldnt even talk without gasping for air it was pretty scarey. I still feel pretty bad but alittle better each day. Today I got my cpap machine so tonight will be my first night with it I hope it goes good wish me luck! I cant wait for my date to come so i can be healthy again and stop having all these health problems.

May 5, 04
Last night I went to my first support group I enjoyed it very much I learned alot from pre-ops and It really made me more assured seeing so many people at different stages pre-op you learned something from each one of what happened and what to expect and I also learned that I am not the only one that has the same frame of mind when it comes to food I actually felt normal knowing there are so many others with the same issues I have...
I have had my cpap machine for a few weeks now it was really hard at first the mask i had kept leaking air and was very annoying i did switch to another one which works alot better I still cant sleep trhough the whole night with but it is alot longer and with less interuptions than with the face mask. I do find i feel more rested now and I am sure that will only get better with time...
OK NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS..... MY DATE WAS MOVED UP TODAY!!!!!!!!! I now have July 28th 2004 I was so happy excited scared all at once the feeling was awesome I actually sat there and cryed for a moment.. wow 12 weeks from now i will be on my way to a healthier happier ME!!!

May 20,04

Last week I had to have a blood test for H Pylori before I could get approved for surgery by my insurance.. which i had no idea what it was so i done some research on it and this is what I found......
Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) is a spiral-shaped bacterium that is found in the gastric mucous layer or adherent to the epithelial lining of the stomach. Most persons who are infected with H. pylori never suffer any symptoms related to the infection; however, H. pylori causes chronic active, chronic persistent, and atrophic gastritis in adults and children. Infection with H. pylori also causes duodenal and gastric ulcers. Infected persons have a 2- to 6-fold increased risk of developing gastric cancer and mucosal-associated-lymphoid-type (MALT) lymphoma compared with their uninfected counterparts. The role of H. pylori in non-ulcer dyspepsia remains unclear Many people both in the medical community and public, now know that an infection caused by the germ called Helicobacter Pylori, is frequently associated with some digestive tract disorders like peptic ulcer, gastritis and cancer of the stomach.
But many of these people may not be aware that untreated H.Pylori infection can also be significantly associated with an increase in the blood level of a very important nerve vitamin B12.This is a hyper-neuro-vitaminosis which may affect a person's behavior and mental health.

Kinda scarey looking stuff dont you think ?... So now I have to go on anitbiotics .. i have to take 4 of them twice a day that is 8 anitibiotics a day for 2 weeks!!!... Geezs that ought it kill it huh? then i have to wait six weeks after that and go in for a breath test to retest to see if it is cleared up.. WISH ME LUCK!!!

June 1,04

My daughter and I were talking the other day and she asked me if I was going to attend her graduation in 2005 I said of course I will why wouldnt I?.. but she kept asking will i be there and then asked me to promise her I would be there I told her yes i promise I wouldnt miss it for the world and i asked why wouldnt I again? she told me that i better not go and die on her from this surgery and she just wanted a promise that i would be there it broke my heart and yet felt so loved at the same time. I know she is worried about but she is also very supportive and happy for me.she is such a good kid and i love her so much i just pray i will be there to see her in cap and gown i will be the proudist mom there. I asked her to promise me that if something god forbid did happen to me that would graduate she laughed alittle and said yes she promised I know how things can change so quickly for a young teenager their goals and peer pressure that is my dream that both my kids make it and get their diploma and just be happy with themselves.
I love you both with all my heart I am so proud of you both in your own ways yall have so much love to give and I am so lucky to be your mother thank you for that gift. I LOVE YOU, Mom.

July 14,04

I just got back from Atlanta this week I brought my son for the summer to visit with family while I have my surgery this will be a great help for me knowing I dont have to worry about him while I am in the hospital. I enjoyed my visit very much my daughter was there also we went have her gradutation pictures done I was so proud of her. I got to say all my good byes and told everyone what I wished for them if something should happen to me and how much I love them. I am not scared going into this actually as of now very calm and anxious. I am so ready for a change I had my pre-op visit at the hospital on the 12th.
Went pretty well got weighed in on the 13th and actually was down to 299.7, ha i have no idea how that happen the only i can figure is in Ga it was SOOOOO HOT.. it water loss..lol but either way that is less i will have to lose after surgery and the closer i will be to goal.. GOAL.. now there is a topic I am not sure what I want for a goal weight. I have the size 12 or 10 in my head. But afraid to be disappointed so for now the plan is just to be happy in the moment. I still havent gotten and thing ready for after surgery I have been putting it off it doesnt seem like it has kicked in yet on how close it is. I think this weekend i will have to make a special shopping trip to get the things i will need.
I was given some size 12 summer clothes that would be great if I could get to wear them next summer. or maybe even they will be too big??... lol just a thought!

Oct.09,2004

It has been awhile since my last update the first day of surgery i woke up with major pain with a small scar but the pain was insane they found a leak on day 2 had to go back into the surgery that day i woke up from that one with such pain in my back and side i could not move. and lost my voice also when they put me to sleep the second time they messed up my vocal chords and still to this day i can barely talk went to a specialist and he has no idea what is wrong other than one side isnt working he told me to wait 6 - 8 weeks and go back if it has not gotten better they want to run some more test.. go figure i had to stay in the hospital for 2 weeks and went home still in alot pain they pumped out 22 liters of liquid from my insides and what was left cause so much pain.. i had two drain tubes and a feed tube the wound was open and packed for a week and a half not a pretty sight.. but on a happier note i have lost 50.5 lbs in 2 1/2 months woohoo.. i went from a size tight 28 to a 20 i am so excited... I am off all my meds now and no more cpap machine...i have to work on taking my vitaims and not drinking while eating that is the hardest thing for me so far.

Nov 1,04

on my three month anniv.i weighed in at 245 that is a 60 lb loss i want to lose 100 by six months maybe i am setting my goal too high but i am happy with my progress so far. i know some have lost more than i have so far but we are not all the same and i am going at my own pace.

11/09/04

I got on the scale today and was please I am now 239.5 that is
-64.5lb so far i had a set back later today but its one day and i have the rest of my life to make better choices.

Dec 8/04

-75.5lbs today I am so excited the scale starting moving again i know to expect there will be times i wont lose or lose slowly but when it happens to you it doesnt make it feel any better. 229 lbs YIPPEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

Dec 13th/04
-80 today got into my 16's todayand feeling good.

Jan 10/2005

The scale FINALLY moved today 217.5 (-86.5lbs ) I have been on a Plateau for a month it was so discouraging hopefully it will keep dropping now.

Jan 18th 05

went for my check up today Im at 210 Dr S was very happy with my progress and so am I
I can fit into some 14's now i have 6lbs to reach my 6 month goal keep your fingers crossed.

FEB 13th 05
I got on the scale this week I hit the century mark I have lost 101.5 pounds yeah for me I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!

Feb 15th
I weigh under 200 now I was so excited i cried IM 199 i am so happy with myself right now and things just seem to get better everyday.

 Feb 26,05
I have lost 109 pounds now I can fit into 14 and 12's
I am feeling great things are going good for me making some changes in my life all for the better.

July 16, 05
I have reached my own personal goal in the last few months in my weight by losing 130lbs my BMI is in the "NORMAL" range ...YEAH!!!
and also in my personal life by being true to myself. This has changed me in so many ways it has given me the confidence to take a stand in what I think is right and make changes in the things that are not.

Nov 15,05

I haven't updated lately I have been pretty busy I just got married in September I am very happy to have him in my life he completes me in every way the one thing I have been missing. I am truly blessed to have met him. He is a wonderful dad to my kids and my son adores him and they have a great time together. I added a pic of him from his last race my son will be getting a bike soon he wants to ride with dad but, "MOM" as in "I" will be a nervous wreck but boys will be boys!
they tell me I worry too much but isnt that our job?..lol

12/11/05

This weekend my daughter came home from school we had a great visit with her..... I have a consult for plastics at the end of Jan ..I'm very excited!!! still holding at the same weight pretty much but I did some how lose 2 pounds last week Im not trying to lose more but I won't complain..lol

April 20,06

I am out from my tummy tuck one month tomorrow... I am very thrilled with the results. It came out so much more better than I had hoped for.... even with all the weight I had lost I still felt fat with all the extra skin now for the first time since my wls I feel THIN.. yeahhhhh I am down to 166lbs that is -142lbs from my all time high of 308 before i had my surgery. I am very happy :)