fstoddard0818
I Am Changing
Jul 23, 2009
Hi Family,
Its July (6 months) out and so far so good. I got a hair weave for the first time in my life. I can say its interesting I don't have major hair loss I just wanted to change my appearance. Out with the old In with the new. I get a lot of compliments but the long hair has irritated my neck really bad. So I just keep it pinned up off my neck.
Lets see last time I chimed in I was having sever muscle cramps. My PCP did my blood work I was deficient in Vit K, Potassium and my blood count was low. He gave me some instructions and so far so good in a few days all symptoms where gone.
Lately, Ive been drinking a lot I cant seem to put the glass down. I've always been a wine drinker but not to the extreme as now. My mom died of liver damage from drinking many years. Now that food isn't the center of my world Absolute and Cranberry is. May I add that I used sugar free cranberry, that's supposed to make me not feel guilty. I have to find the willpower to beat this. I see it becoming a problem Its not just a social thing I actually be home chilling and I need that drink before I lay down. Is there anyone out there going thru the same thing? Or has went thru the same issue.
I can say my weight loss is slow but consistent I feel slower is better it allows my skin a chance to respond thus avoiding skin sagging. I don't have much sagging my tummy has the overhang from having C sections 3 times. But it didn't turn out as bad as I thought, however it does look like a dry raisin LOL. I had a guy ask me when would I have the next surgery. I was like what surgery ? He said the one to cut of the skin. See he was under the impression that Bypass surgery comes in 2 folds. I told him not true and not everybody is interested in plastics. Honestly, I'm 43 I look like I'm 35 , I don't wear SPANX or uncomfortable girdle's and push up bras and I kept my thickness, men think I'm a brick house (LMAO if only they knew) men are so visual ,seems to me I have for filled my weight destiny. I don't want to be cut on anymore. This was traumatic for me and my family who took care of me while I laid crying about how this was a mistake (I have not regrets now) . My daughter had to stick suppositories up my tootie because I was so constipated I couldn't bend over and reach my own ass. Above all I don't want to have them stand over me as I come back from surgery in pain yet again looking at me with the " Why cant you be happy with you" look. I'm good, I'm blessed and I'm happy and thankful if I never lost another pound I would be OK.
My original goal was 185 I think I could stand to loss another 10-15 pounds in the next 6 months. No rush or hurry. I intend to stay the course. I still dump ever morning . When I mean dump I don't vomit never have. I get a severe case of diarrhea in the morning if I eat or drink anything. Usually by 12noon I can eat my stomach is empty by then. Still cant tolerate sugar, fried food, all diary and Italian sauces make me so nausea. Those I stay away from. I have so many men taking me on dates that I eat out frequently but I make good choices and what I don't eat i take home and give to my sons. I never return to the leftovers. I'm hooked on watermelon. I love it.
Well that's it for now , thank you guys for all the encouraging blogs and post. I still read all my friends profiles to see updates. I know we forget to check in but try to add it to your calendar as a reminder. I want to know your progress. I smile and laugh when I see a new pic of you guys, I cry when you guys cry . Be blessed. "Never could of made it" without you...
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About Me
Upper Marlboro, MD
Location
20.5
BMI
Surgery
01/13/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 24, 2008
Member Since
