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So it has been six months and I feel great! I am down 100 lbs, but of course always wish it was more. I have been having a few sad days lately where I think if I didn't let myself go so far it wouldn't be as bad. I still have a good 70 lbs to lose, and pray that it will happen. I need to get to the gym but with my schedule, hubby's schedule and kids it's a nightmare. I went home and saw my family for the first time since the surgery and everyone said how great I looked, but I kept wanting more. I think it's the story of my life. I really wish there was a local support group here, but living in Alaska, there's not. So for now it's OH! I'm not sure how or if I'll ever stop comparing myself to others, that may require professional assistance . Who know time will tell. I definitely want to blog more because I think it helps to get my thoughts out. So TTFN!

So I am feeling so blah lately. I can barely make myself get out of bed. I have been having headaches too but I think that's from not enough fluid so I'm working on that. I have a hard time making myself eat and wonder if I can do this. I go back to work soon and don't know how I'm going to manage. I can not seem to find the energy to do much but I need to muster it up from somewhere. 
My incisions are still not healed and I am surprised. They are still scabbed over. My friends, who had the surgery 4 days before me,  are healed and sealed and have been for 2 weeks! Ugh. I wonder if it had to do with the amount of blood lost? Who knows. But somehow I have got to get out of this funk!
Amanda