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:-)  Although last week started a little bad it ended with a bang and a trip to my PCP left me feeling good.  Am I dehydrated? yeah.  Is my calcium low?  well yeah BUT.... electrolytes are good and *drumroll* my A1C is 5.6 WOOOHOOOOO!  That's REALLY exciting for me considering my ONLY health problems were in direct relation to my sugar being uncontrolled.  :-p  Other than that things are good.  My doctor is sending me to have and ECHOCARDIAGRAM on Tues and they are gonna make me wear a heart moniter for 48 hours but that is just to check out my murmur and to double check that my only issue is the dehydration.  How dehydrated was I you might ask?  Monday at the hospital I weighed 214 when I checked into the ER.... Thursday morning I weighed 223.... +9lbs in 4 days from simply drinking... If I have any advice at all for anyone reading this.  PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE drink your water.  Every function in your body relies on it.... you skimp on it or simply forget about it and not only will you end up feeling like crap and hinder your weightloss but you will potentially hurt yourself...  Passing out for 30-45 seconds doesn't really seem that scary. but what if you are in your car?  Or holding your child?  I was lucky I had just gotten out of the shower the first time and in a doctors office the second....  there will not be a next time though...   well unless I win the lottery then water might not play a role in passing out.... lol *toasts everyone with her waterbottle*  :-)  Hope everyone is well tonight...

My PCP is heading out for maternity leave in 3 weeks so she set me up for an iron infusion treatment last Friday(ferritin 6)... I went and sat for 5 hours getting pumped full of the "good stuff" then felt like I had the flu for the next day and 1/2.(Common side effect apparently)...SOOO today I went for a mammogram to have a look at an old scar from a wreck and I fainted... or had a seizure?  From what I gathered from the tech I fell and drew up my arms and legs like I was seizing but didn't foam at the mouth or bite down...  *shrugs*  So the ambulance came and took me around the corner to the ER (I was at Charlotte Radiology RIGHT next to CMC) and there I got poked and prodded from 9am-2:45pm...  My CT came back normal... My EKG... normal.... one weird thing though?  the tube of blood they took for the labs when I got there clotted and was unusable by the time they got it to the lab and they had to stick me again.... hmmm... but other than dehydration, malnutrition and a low heartrate(50) I was and am fine...   Sooo I signed myself out of the hospital and went back to work downstairs with the strictest instructions to keep taking my multivitamins and to try to drink nonstop......  *sigh*  What a day.  :-p

Not really bad just when I eat too fast... and I usually do.  That's one of the hardest things about surgery for me... I tend to be in a hurry at work and scarf down my dinner leaving me with a tummyache.  It's odd for my friends to see me say I am full after 3-4 bites but when I eat those bites without chewing the 20 or without pausing my pouch doesnt have time to process what I've just put in...  For me its hard mentally to slow down because I am still thinking... "I am hungry, I am hungry" and the eating fast is a left over habit from being bigger...  I even have trouble ordering.. I still order meals most of the time instead of one thing only at the hospital cafeteria and more often then not just throw it away after the 1 bite of each side...  I am trying harder though to get into the habit of eating some sort of protein each day... right now I am on a beans and cheese kick... its not that its my favorite thing but I still cant seem to digest any sort of meat without feeling sick...  I go back to my PCP next monday and she is going to followup on my bloodwork and let me know how her conversations with my surgeon's office went this week.  She is an OUTSTANDING primary care doctor...  I can't sing enough praises to her for not only recommending me to have surgery but standing by my decision to wait a year to try to do it on my own(what was I thinking!!) and now 8 months out to still be so active in how I am doing...  you know working in the medical field I see alot of Dr's in good faith try to treat patients based on what they 'think' is best for them and alot of times even make guesses about what is wrong but Dr. Karla is different... she LISTENS to what I'm saying and then asks me what I want to accomplish in my visit... and now with the not tolerating meat thing she readily said she wasn't comfortable speculating on why because it was out of her scope of expertise but would make some calls and do some research and touch base with my surgeon...  In a field where some run around surviving on titles and speculation I found a Dr that is so comfortable with herself and her field she is ok admiting her limitations.... If you havent figured it out already my friends I absolutely LOVE Dr. Karla Hudson-Parris...  If you need a Dr...  MMG Uptown... she's an internest(sp?)... tell her Crystal-Michelle sent ya.... lol...  maybe I can get a referral kickback???  lol (seriously?  5 of my coworkers have switched to her this year... come ON Dr. Karla... a free bottle of water.... something?)  Hope everyone is doing ok tonight and sorry this is sooooo scattered.  :-p 

The people at work are driving me CRAZY!!!  Everyday the women in my department constantly call me "skinny girl" or "miss Britney Spears" and at first it was funny.... but now it just annoys me... I am 220lbs and although I have lost 110lbs I am not skinny.... arrghhh... I know it's a small complaint that shouldnt really be a complaint it's just annoying to hear it every, EVERY day... y'know?  OHHHHH and they started a weightloss club that they constantly tell me I can't join(cause I had the surgery) but they are all taking HCG shots and two of them are getting lapband...  I feel like an outcast... BUT I LOOK FREAKIN FABULOUS AS ONE.... LOL... arrrgghhhh.   Time to go listen to a little  Linkin  Park way to loud on my drive home.... Hope everyone is doing well... peas and carrots! Mich.

So I went to my PCP today... Dr. Karla Hudson... (who I have to admit is the most awesome Dr I have ever had) and she said that everything looks fine but I was a little "dry" and she thinks thats why I fainted in Amsterdam.  ooooookkkkk...  other than that she took more bloodwork and tested  everything from liver and kidney function to Vit D, vit B and Iron levels... I go back on Jan 26th for all those results plus my annual female exam.. I talked to her about my shortened female time and she thinks thats normal given all the hormone flux in the last 7 months and thinks that the new found cramping could be because I am indeed dehydrated!!  It makes sense though...  if you are a runner and dont drink enough your legs cramp... hmmm she said my potassium levels were going from high to low like mad too so its another sign of dehydration.... *shrugs*  maybe I can wear all those pants that are too big now if I slip a water bottle or two between me and the waistband??  lol... seriously though?  I'm gonna have to force myself to start drinking more. :-p

On a completely diffferent note... I am back off to Holland Feb 9-22... Jeroen and I have decided to "reevaluate" our commitment... it's really not something I THOUGHT about doing my trip a month ago but the revelation that he had a "friend" there came via telephone from his sister the day after I got home....  YEAH ok....  thats another post though my friend Veronica is waiting patiently for me to leave work so we can walk out together... peace and love losers!  :-))

So I am the first to admit it.. I am LAZY when it comes to blogging.  I get on the OH site about 3 times a week and check out other peoples progress and yet I don't write anything here.  Sometimes(like today) I think it's because I am having trouble putting together cohesive thoughts *shrugs* But honestly?  I'm not really sure why.  I want to share my story it's just not as easy to write about as I thought....

I'm currently a little over 7 months out from surgery and down to 220lbs(-110) and size 16(from 26/28) and although I stalled at 5 months for nearly a month things are ticking right along now and I am feeling pretty good about life.  Month 5 was a hard one for me... I was losing ALOT of hair and was finding that although I could eat more than normal I still could not handle chicken or turkey without having to suffer for an hour later.  So I ate the wrong things and although I didnt gain weigh... I wasn't losing.  So.... over the last month and a half I have found that I can tolerate some cheese and ground beef in small quantities and have been adding 1 to 2 servings a day to my "normal" diet.  I had stressed over my period too over the last serveral months because it went from every 28 days to every 24-25 days and since adding the meat and cheese it has went back to every 28.... yey!  Now if only I could get rid of this cold.... :-)

Hope everyone is feeling well... I checked everyone's board and everyone is LOOKING fabulous... woohoo!  Nothing stopping us now!!  :-p

The last 3-4 weeks have been baaad.... I've been at the same weight (240) and feeling all kinds of bad because the scale wasnt moving. It is true that I wasnt eating as I should but I still shouldve been losing.  The fix?  I added the protein shakes Ive been neglecting BACK to my daily routine and dropped 7 lbs this last week... aahhhhh yeah...  :-)  I'm still having trouble with my hair coming out but my PCP gave me a prescription for prenatals and told me to take those(cut into 4 pieces) and it should help with anything I am lacking... she also said the next time I am in the office she was going to give me a B shot...  *shrugs*  40 days til I go see my Jeroen in the Netherlands.... I am excited.  He hasnt seen me since before the surgery with the exception of a couple photos and the webcam so it's going to be interesting to see his reaction. He says he simply can not wait to be able to just comfortable wrap his arms around me.... that's incredibly sweet no?  well yes and no... I didnt know it was that hard to do to begin with????  Neither here nor there I'm just happy to be able to see him soon...

 

ok.... crazy thing happening.... before my surgery I had a period every 28 days like clockwork and now its every 25 days???? what gives... not liking it.

:-(  28 days was predictable and normal?????  Is something wrong with my baby making mobile?  I dont have kids and the deciding factor on the surgery was not to look better but to have a sucessful pregnancy (two misscarriages)... my heart aches tonight and my PCP is in the hospital so I dont know when I can see her....  :-(

Hey guys... time for one of those emails you hate to write cause you dont WANT people to know but you need to share.... I am seriously screwing up... I see it... I recognize it but I cant seem to help myself... I am falling back into my old habits and eating more and more... I havent GAINED any weight but I have been in a stall for a month now and I know its directly due to my lack of motivation.  What mentally is my malfunction???  arggghhh... Im receiving tons of attention which should me motivation enough but even that isnt helping these days.  I dont want this to be "it"  y'know but why cant I get my head back to where it needs to be?  I am 41/2 months out and 90lbs down... its incredible.... so why am I struggling?????

so I weighed today...242.08... up 2 lbs... I havent been doing my vitamins or protein lately and I know this is the problem... I have to get refocused and keep my eye on the end result... I feel and look so good right now I can not get lax.. I am not done losing.

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