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I am a country girl at heart, clothes, purses, music, dancing, men...oh wait I'm married.....LOL.

Today a lady came into work with a pair of western style pants, I cannot wait to buy my first pair, along with a cute western style shirt.  I might even get a new purse, lol.

When I think about the fact that this will be a reality I begin to get teary eyes.  I wish surgery day would hurry so I can get rid of these cryin cooties!  LOL

Well.......yep.......my husband took me out to dinner for my 'last supper' of sorts.

We went to a nice steak house and went all out.  Appetizer, salad, entree, and dessert, oh and a raspberry margarita.

It was all very good.  I ate more last night than I have in a long time.  The whole time just thinking...soon...very soon....I will not be able to eat like this...thank God!

Still a little emotional, but I don't have time for that.  I've got to get things ready for us to be gone for those 4 days.  We have 3 dogs and 2 cats that I need to make sure is taken care of while we are gone.  I have books for the classes that I teach that are being delivered probably while we are gone.  Of course then there is the house and yard.  Oh I forgot laundry....well as you can see this Easter weekend is going to be really busy for me.

Well I have 5 days before I have surgery.  So far everyone is telling me that the emotionalism is normal.  However, I may still need a good therapist.

My case manager called and I guess they will follow me for 1 year.  Kind of nice.....

I am reading my wls for dummies book, I get to the chapter on buying clothes that fit and I began to get teary eyed.

Why is losing weight such an emotional issue for me?????

I do want to be healthy
I do want to enjoy eating healthy foods
I do want to enjoy working in my yard
I want to be able to walk my dog without breaks
I do want to shop in 'regular' stores
I do want to fit into public places, plane seats, restaraunt chairs, etc.

So why?  Surgery is in 6 days....is this normal?  I have been so excited and now tears?  I guess the emotional roller coaster as started and I need to keep myself in check.

I also started drinking...no sipping water today....wow...I didn't know sipping could be so hard, LOL.

Boy I need a good therapist!

OMG, I just got this book and have been reading it.  Now I'm glad I have cut back on ciggerettes, and I will not smoke again.  They can cause ulcers in rny patients.

Well........this surgery really is going to make me a healthier person.

Tonight I ate asparagus.....wow I like it!   LOL  I was totally amazed but I did I really like it.  Cool, there's a new vegetable I can have after surgery.

Well tomorrow I'm going to start drinking, no sipping water all day so I can be well practiced for surgery and hospital discharge.

I have decided to keep a journal both written and pics of my journey so....who knows you may see some pics of me shopping tomorrow for my sippie cup, baby spoon, etc......

Ok, I really need to stay away from smoking; at least until I have surgery.  I hate smoking......but I love smoking.....if smoking wasn't bad for you I wouldn't want to quit....LOL

Oh and I started helping out a friend who owns her own business...and it's a ciggerette store...I'm surrounded...HELP