Return to my abyss

Sep 02, 2019

I have not fared well in last 3 years. I had extreme bullying , cancer Scare and multiple falls. I went from -67 back to 220 pounds during this time. I’m disgusted with my self for allowing myself to return to this hell. At first I let a few pounds here and there to continue to sneak (my head buried deep from acknowledgement). I have not handled the stress well. I’m starting to regain a semblance of control.

The draw of food as my confidant is and has always been my disparity. Now I am drowning in dispair that I may not ever see the hope of 160 pounds. I’m no longer working due to medical issues now. Being at home dealing with the draw of solace in food a big difficulty. I have not been able to go out and do the activities that occupied my post op time. Activities are limited due to pain again , as well as the money. 

Is there any suggestions from anyone who revived from regain ? Thanks in advance

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