glamourqueen64
I am a 48 year-old mother of two grown children, along with a teenage son that is still at home with me. (This story is being written on Feb. 24, 2013 instead of when I first started here in Dec. 2012) Hey, somethings I can see right away, and other things not so well. In my first blog, I told my story of how I came to the conclusion of having surgery. If you have not read it yet, here goes.
All my life from 3rd grade on, I have been heavy with the exception of a few years. One of those being my senior year in high school. I was bound and determined not to be fat that year. I am 5'4" and I don't know my exact weigth or clothing size, but I do know that I was too big and was trying to squeeze into a 14. I did the regular diet, boiled eggs, no bread, tuna, no mayo, salad, and then whatever had for supper with the family was out soon after by way of laxative. I exercised almost 3 hours a day while starving myself. After about one year, I got down to 120 lbs, and got very sickly. Doctor had to give me vitamin b-12 injections every week for about two months. Anyhow, I left his office with him tell me to gain weight and get up to 150 and never anything less. That was at 19. Well, I listened and got up to 150, although I didn't stay there long. I got bigger again. I lost again. Got bigger again, and you know the cycle. After 30 some years of doing this, I am tired. I am tired of being fat, looking fat, and just not being normal anymore. I hate saying that I cannot fit into a normal 3X anymore. I wear a size 24 jeans for the first tme in my life. I was at my heaviest back in Dec. and for my consult weight in at 275! I have to do 6 nut visits and as of March 4th, will be half way done. Also of that date, I will have all of my testing done. My last appointment for the nut wll be June 3rd or 4th, can't remember at the moment. But,I am so excited about doing this, that I have all my ducks in a row, and am also stocking up on the pre-op, post-op, and life-long protein supplements. I do take all the suggested vitamins and supplements now to get into the habit of taking all those pills for the rest of my life. I have read too many stories of people that have lost so much energy and had wished they had begun research earlier. Well, I am one of those that have to have major research done before I even look at something, and this surgery was no different. I always said this was the "easy way out", until I did some research on this about 5 years ago. I was up and down back then and 3 years ago, I was down to 220, and knew that since I had no co-morbidities, I would be denied. Well, in 2011, I sprained my ankle worse than thought, and had t fight with the company's insurance to get surgery to reconstruct my ligament. That was in june of 2012. From Nov. 2011 to Dec 2012, I had gained over 45 lbs because I could not walk. I was horrified!
Back up to October 2012. While still unable to go back to work due to intense therapy on the ankle, my husband calls me fat, useless, and dirty and nasty. He left me. So............just a few weeks later, I got back onliine, did some research about physician's in this area and found Dr. Peter Lalor. Hence, in December of 2012, I went to the information meeting and then got a call the next day with an appointment to see him January 3rd and that was the beginning. I do post on here, although no one respondes, it still helps me to see that I am trying to keep a record of things going on and how I am feeling.
Right now, I am excited to be almost at the half-way point of requirements for my insurance to get this surgery done! I do have GERD, and was diagnosed at my annual physical that I am pre-diabetic (Dec. 2012) I have been taking medication for both since then. I am praying that this surgery will also help with the pains of arthristis in all of my joints! I do not want to have hip and knee replacements any time soon. The sooner this weight comes off, the better my whole body will fell.
Deciding to have this surgery has nothing to do with being vain and wanting to be thin. This surgery has to do with helping my co-morbidities not become dangerous and do away with them altogether. This surgery is also a tool in helping me be able to still take care of myself when my youngest son moves out in a few years. I will be over 50 at that time and I do not want to be 300 lbs and unable to walk because of all the pain in my legs or hips or knees. I want another chance to be healthy again. It will take alot of work, alot of research and help of family and friends and some of those have already taken this route.
Have a blessed day!
