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Last I blogged I was horribly depressed. Still on the battlefield of that war but starting to see help on the horizon. So my journey since having lap band has been exciting and heart breaking. In short Lost weight & gained alot back. So after crying and beating myself up I am at the planning phase of making the change again. Jumping back on that horse of working out and doing everything I can to take this weight back off. I guess this is how I operate. Some people just do it but I am a planner. I am working my way into working out again. Perhaps that could be my excuse for not going to the gym today and taking control back but it makes sense to me. I have to plan and build the courage back up to face what I know needs to be a part of my life forever. I have to do this for me so I can enjoy me and my children and grandchildren can enjoy me. So if you are where I am dont feel alone. We are all in this together.

I had lapband surgey Sept 19, 2007. I lost 104lbs. I have gained back all but 25lbs of my weight. I am so depressed and feel like a failure. It is very difficult to get motivated to do anything to change my circumstances when I feel this bad. I stand in the need of help.