Feeling lost and out of control

Sep 21, 2016

Hi all. It has been awhile since I have posted. mostly because I am ashamed and feeling defeated. I cannot seem to stay on plan. I see sugar and I'm face first in it and can't seem to stop myself. I am up 20 lbs. I was okay with ten, but 20 is too much.I feel like I always have...I reach goal and I lose it. This has to be forever and I am acting like a spoiled brat with the "its not fair" mentality I seem to have regarding sugar. 

I know I am addicted, seriously, and I love to bake. I bake, telling myself I won't eat it, but most of the time I do. I have cookies in the freezer. Gluten free for dad, egg free for mom, my sister's favorite, my daughter's favorite...I bake and bake. I have lost my way. Someone on this board told me  my baking days are over, and she was absolutely right, but it is my outlet. 

Is there some way to reconcile my love of baking with staying on plan? And what is my plan? I am just lost and I hate this feeling. I want to be in control again. Low carb always works best for me, so if anyone has any tips, I am desperate to hear them. What is the average calorie count and protein count for you? Do you do low fat with the low carb? High fat? How much fruit is too much? Ugh! I Hate this feeling!

Thanks for letting me vent, everyone.

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