HeatherInIthaca
Why did I do this to myself is a question that I have asked myself over and over and over again.... Do I have the answers NO but man do I wish I did because then I could fix my heart as well as my head.
I started off as a small person, honestly I did (not that I remember it but because My mother has told me so) I can only remember back to when I was in the 5th grade and being that my name is Heather Morse I was referred to by some nasty girls as Heifer Moose because I was "big boned" and had a 36 C chest when the other girls had A cup. The name stuck with me for about a week but as you can see it has stuck with my mind 22 years. I also remember when I was 16 and lived in Havelock NC (Marine base brat) and we used to go to the beach alot I would NEVER EVER wear shorts or a bathing suit because I was FAT..HUGE..GIGANTIC or so my small mind thought anyway... I weighed a whole whopping 165 lbs (100 lbs less then now). What was wrong with me.. I would give anything to get back to 165 lbs. Man what is a crisis to us when we are 16 is definitely NOT when we are 37 or so I am finding out..
I had gastric Lab Banding surgery on Feb 23rd 2006 and today I am down 33 lbs from my highest weight... My lovely band is one fickle beeotch... somedays she likes things and then some days without notice she hates them and pitches them back out of my body.. I know that my band is where she needs to be with 7 fills @ 2.7cc in my 4cc band but Heather's head is not where it needs to be... GOD HELP ME GET THERE.
