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It's alright guys, neither you or any of your friends, that you eventually get to join you here, will be spammed. Plus this new forum really needs some WLS representation. So please click on the URL above, sign up lickity-split and ADD me as your friend there and decorate your profile too w/ before & after pics.

Ciao 4 now, Jennifer
BTW, my moniker on Yuwie is SWEETIE DARLING JET SET.

I've fantasized of being in OneDerLand [ie. when a woman's weight is one hundred-something; for those that don't know and have never had to relate to this] since I entered TwoDerLand(?) and ThreeDerLand(?). I'm quitting right there. LOL! But seriously, I've wondered as an adult woman what would it be like to finally cross backward over that threshold to weighing 199 pounds..... and less? Possibly 166lbs. or between 127- 133lbs. [which is my personal goal weight range] for after I've been able to have WLS and I'm post-op. Will I recognize myself, will I like myself? Will family and friends or acquaintances acknowledge me and like me more or less?

Something tells me that I'll be accepted by strangers because they won't know my 'history'. They won't know the slings and arrows I endured from elementary school through adolescence. They won't know the chaos and humiliation of dating people and thinking that they actually like you when in reality they see you you as an easy lay, and could give two sh!ts about you. That was a slow but sure lesson I got in dating men and women. That has made me super conscious and, well, suspicious of everyone. It taught me to, if I may use the title of my fave Carrie Fisher book, not SURRENDER THE PINK so readily or quickly. Strangers won't know the Jenny 'pre-op' only the Jenny post-op/ present.

This leads me to question that if I'm ever lucky enough to have true, unconditional love find me again, will that person genuinely love me for me regardless of what the scale and my BMI says? Or will that person only be happy with the slimmer me because that's ALL that they know? Seeing photos of me is one thing. Living and being with me when I was morbidly obese, day after day with my efforts, and starvation and self hatred, is another. My late husband was the best because he sympathized with me and loved me unconditionally and only wanted me to be happy and happy in my own skin. I had his support 100% percent when I told him I was hell bent on having gastric bypass. Yes, he was uneasy about it. That meant I had to educate him about it, show him photos and have him watch videos of operations being performed. All simply so he would understand and not be flying blind. I explained the pros and cons. But the pros far outweigh the cons. And I had my hubby's full support if no one else's.

I'm nearly five years a widow, 5 years older and wiser and impatient. I'm agoraphobic and suffer with anxiety. Should I make an attempt to 'meet' someone online that is familiar with WLS and NOT some flippin' chubby chaser?!? They are the WORST btw. They always think that obese women are craving food every hour of the bloody day! That's dead wrong and d^mmed insulting! Buying food and snacks will NOT win me over. I need someone that is knowledgeable about this because I'll admit I get tired of having to repeatedly educate someone that either I might take an interest in or vice versa. Its exhausting and I feel like a broken record. Not having to go through all that with someone would impress me.

What else would impress me? Well, were it not for the burden of my flesh, how about going to Cannes.... and I'm not talking about the canned food aisle in a supermarket either. Or the symphony or my fave opera? But until I'm able to slip into those 'average' sized seats, how about replacing a CD or 10 that I lost to some thief from when my original music collection was stolen 2 years after I moved to NYC? Or pay to have my artwork properly appraised, registered and insured? Or contribute to paying for my surgery? That would impress the heck out of me!! If you play your cards right, guy or doll, I might propose to you.

Ahh OneDerLand. The motherland. I think I left OneDerLand in high school, possibly as a sophomore, definitely as a junior. I've never seen myself at an average size at the age it was appropriate for. Never. That's sad cuz' when I look at my baby and toddler photos I was a really adorable and lovely little girl. My pic was even hung in a portrait studio's window when I was at that age. I can't help but ponder had my train not jumped track would I have grown up to be a number one stunner? Who knows. Thus the title of my BLOG "Such a Pretty Face, but...". But if I were ale to pay for my passage aboard the S.S. WLS, and pray that the seas are are not stormy but that the currents are swift, someday I'll make it back to the mysterious OneDerLand to stay.

Everything is just going wrong with my family and for me personally. I'm absolutely distraught and wishing I'd succeeded in killing myself years ago. I'm nothing but bad luck for myself and everyone around me. Afterall, I'm a 'Wednesday's Child' [born on a Wednesday. If U don't know what that means, just Google it. It's an old children's rhyme.

My sis is miserable no matter how hard I try to comfort her. Now she's coming up to NYC on Friday but the super et al are replacing water pipes for all of the toilets in my flat. I have to pull everything away from my walls, take everything out of my closets and off of the floor so the exterminator and inspector can do what they need to do regarding the mice problem in my building. Now if I do all of this & they're coming back again, I won't be able to sleep anywhere cuz I've gotta pile stuff on top of everything. And my sister won't be able to sleep on anything either. And she can't sleep on the floor. I won't really be able to do business by trying to get post-op patients to buy my WLS wristbands. And that sucks because now I've gotta try to earn at least $1100.00 in sales in 4 days through PayPal to cover the rent and feed and look after my sis while she stays w/ me. Or I could end up homeless before my sister arrives!! Everyone's still on pins & needles about my brother's prognosis since his lumps were removed. Uncertain if they were too late.

Jezus I feel like I'm gonna have a stroke and I can't handle this pressure anymore because I've asked for help from so many but no one seems to care or offers to help and I'm not even asking for much. Now I know why I never used to ask for help. I'm nothing but a fat, useless failure. Everything I touch gets ruined or never works and it seems like everyone that comes into my life dies. Success and happiness is fleeting for me and I can't do anything for anyone. Looks like my dad was right. I am a stupid, useless behemoth. I'll never be a normal person or inspire or help others. I wish my mom believed in contraceptives in 1969. Then I wouldn't be a burden and maybe no one would've become come ill. Fate is funny like that. I know it sounds silly but what do I know anymore anyway?

Thanks again for the prayers. Goodbye.

J

I found out yesterday, Saturday, from one of my older sisters that not only she has colon cancer, but that our eldest brother had surgery to to have lumps(?) removed because he too has cancer. Then to add insult to injury one of my nieces, that is five years my junior and one half of a set of fraternal girl twins, is legally blind and in a car accident but will still graduate from college this summer! I never knew any of this and it comes as a complete shock. I'm floored. I already lost an older brother to cancer [he was heavy set and later diagnosed with cancer before he passed in 1998 a few years after his wife died]. He was never truly the same when he lost her. I also have another older brother that is deceased but it wasn't from cancer. And as I mention in my overview about myself, I lost my husband in April 2003 to prostate cancer.

The only positive thing is that my sister's docs say that it appears her cancer is in remission. But my sis, whose demeanor can at times be likened to Eeyore, is prepared to die. Now logistically speaking it's always wise to have one's affairs in order. That's fine. But she's practically 'willing' herself to pass on and not let the remission take hold so that she can try to begin life with a new and clean slate in a sense. I'm trying to buoy her spirits and remain positive for her. I learned this first hand from my beloved husband that even as he withered away in front of me, though he knew the end was near for him, he fought and stayed as energetic and positive and hopeful not only for himself but for me as well. I'm trying to do that for my sis, but she plays it off and says, "I'm a realist." Ugghh!!! It's negative & hopeless and defeatist attitudes like that that are one of many reasons why moved from Maryland and got far away from my family whose mindset is plagued with attitude.

It's all so frustrating. So please if anyone reads this please keep my sister and brother [whom are 17 & 20 years my senior], along with my 33 year old niece in your thoughts or prayers. And me too if you can spare a prayer.

Thank you very much.

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"> ... until that schmuck, is out of the oval office. It's not too late to impeach his arrogant, brush clearing behind is it? **Ya gotta laugh to keep from crying, folks. Peace.

I contacted Barbara Thompson [author of Weight Loss Surgery-Finding the Thin Person Hiding Inside You] via email on February 18, to offer her two of my awareness wristbands absolutely free. No charge for anything, just to be nice since, I thought, we were both about promoting WLS. Never got a reply. So yesterday on the 26th I figured I'd call her WLS Center's number to still extend the offer of my 'comp' wristbands. When I explained this to the guy that answered the phone, along w/ the fact that I'd sent an email prior, he said, "Uh- she's not interested." What?!? Wadaya mean she's not interested?!?, I screamed in my head. I told this cat, "Look. First of all they're free and it's pro- WLS." I remarked in a befuddled tone. Then I heard him ask some female in the room, coulda been Barbara T., coulda been some other female that worked there for all I know, about this situation. Now it's a situation. He then came back to the receiver and said, "No, no she's not interested." And hung up.

Mother-F***er!! It's not like I'm in competition w/ this woman. I'd mistakenly thought she might like and appreciate the fact that I've created these bands and was offering her 2 of them for FREE. I'd mistakenly thought that she would recognize that I'm all about wanting to have and promote WLS. I bought her freakin' paperback 4 years ago for cryin' out loud!!

I'm done with this - person. I will not promote her book to anyone. Maybe I'll use mine to light my apple pie scented candles.
B@#ch!!! And anyone who doesn't like it. Oh well, it's my personal experience & opinion and it's my FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

My quest and hope for Twiggy~ness at times feels fleeting if not hopeless. I know there are at least THREE hot, fierce, dynamic and engaging women in this burden of flesh I have no option but to call a body. I'd just like to actually meet her for the first time.

If I just had that silhouette, I'd be golden. I'm a widow, Never had kids, very light social drinker- and I have not been to or held any social gather in a L-O-N-G time, I'm a non-smoker and I don't do drugs, raised with impeccable manners-respect-taste & etiquette [my military/ Army family did not tolerate half stepping but did have a great sense of humour & comedy about them], have travelled and lived in many locales, think cats are okay but am truly a dog person, absolutely comprehend couture and high fashion [just because I can't fit into it YET does not mean I don't know my stuff when it comes to that 'world'. I was the only girl in the 6th grade that actually read 'W'- Women's Wear Daily-VOGUE and my parent's LIFE and Time magazines.], etc, etc, etc.

So yes if my weight were in 'OneDerLand', and also if I were fluent in a 2nd and 3rd language, I'd be Blue Chip baby. I'd be more at peace with myself. Comfortable in my own skin. The one garment I've never worn well. Oh well...

Since I've encountered people that wanted to see my WLS awareness/ acceptance wristbands in the official colors that represent the 'community':
purple-white & gray camouflage, I've decided to post pics of them on my blog. In the 'purple camo' style they're debossed w/ my company name on one side, and on the other side has either one of two phrases:


1. "IT'S MY SURGIVERSARY" or


2. "4 MY FRIEND 100%" *pictured above* [for our friends/ coworkers that cheer us on.]

The yellow-blue and red block silicone wristband that you'll see in the very top photo, the colors of the Colombian flag, is for those Pre-op'ers venturing to Bogota, Colombia for gastric bypass surgery. And the lilac and white swirled band I created specifically for ALL weight loss surgeons, and post WLS plastic/ reconstructive/ 'body lift' surgeons.



All of the bands are gr8 quality, look fab on ladies and gents are inexpensive and I'll ship to residences in the 50 states & *Canada-the *UK-most nations in *Europe and *Australia. Also there's an introductory rate special, and no sales tax, for the first 250 **MINIMUM order placements per person via PayPal by February 27th.


So contact me asap for further details.

Take good care peeps.

Special Notes:
*= Shipment within the U.S is $3.00USD Postage & Handling; to residences outside of the 50 states to the countries I listed are charged $5.00 USD Postage & Handling.

**= the MINIMUM wristbands you can order is two (2). For more than ten of one style contact me first via email. All sales are final.



Thanks everyone and much continued success in your journey to a healthier and more fulfilling life.

Ciao,
Jennifer
Founder/CEO/Creative Dir.; Circle Of Support
http://www.myspace.com/294142596 [Add Me, I need friends! LOL!]

For those you that might be watching the Academy Awards® on Sunday evening, please cheer on my longtime family friend whom is nominated for his third OSCAR®. His name is Ronnie Harwood and I'm hoping this will be his 2nd statue! He's in the category for Best Adapted Screenplay for the film THE DIVING BELL AND THE BUTTERFLY. A few years ago he earned his first Oscar in the same category for Roman Polanski's film THE PIANIST, which starred Queens, NY native & Oscar winner, Adrian Brody. He's a sweet and wonderfully brilliant man and his b'day is 10 days B4 mine {Scorpios so rock!} LOL. Anyway, I called & spoke w/ him on Friday evening at his flat in Chelsea [London] . His flight should've landed in LA today if not late last night. He's very pleased but wisely keeps it all in perspective. Thanks for reading and GO RONNIE, Whoo~hoo!!!

It's cold & rainy-- not that there's anything wrong with that. Plus I'm still waiting on Earthlink to help get rid of my phone service w/ Verizon so I can get their DSL/ Phone package. $65.00 bucks a month ain't bad compared to just having Verizon alone as a phone provider. Those commercial on tv featuring 'Sir Charge' are no joke. LOL! They nickel and dime you every which way they can. My monthly bill would fall between $70.- 94.00(+) bucks!! And that's not including any type of ISP.

They're all crooks! And don't get me started on Time Warner and their strangle hold on cable/ digital cable industry. Where I live in Manhattan, we can't get anything else but them. No dish. NUTHIN'! The digital cable pack I get is $60. odd dollars a month. Ya know what's funny? When I 1st moved to this town i asked people what's the first thing I should get once I get a place? No one said gas/ electric [ConEd]. Not a lawyer. Not a MetroCard bus/ subway fare card. Not mace or lessons @ a firing range. Nope. They told me "Ya gotta get cable." Without it you soon learn how terrible the TV reception is here. Rabbit ears, aluminum foil and a wire hanger ain't gonna tune in reruns of The Nanny unless you do live in Queens. It's all about entertainment on the cheap.

You couldn't pay me to pay money to see a sub-mediocre first run movie in NYC. And heaven help you if you've got even one screaming little hellraiser to take w/ U to the multiplex. Sure you can try and smuggle in outside food & bevvies to save some dough. But they check everyone's Hello Kitty back pack or messenger bag now. Besides, in the theatre you need to give the kid(s) something from the movie concession stand; lest you be looked upon as an unfit parent. So you try to sate little Rahim and his sister L'sagna and the neighbor's tot, Quesadilla, with a box of Snowcaps [I hated those things] and the smallest popcorn [which is actually a medium as we learned on Seinfeld] for them to split between them. Meanwhile, once you're all finally seated you now have to figure out a way to eat your 1/2 sandwich from SUBWAY that you smuggled in your bra. Your mission: 1. to not be noticed reaching into your bra. 2. Not have the kids see or hear you unwrap the paper. 3. To accomplish this without your 'Doodlebops' smell your meatball sub and then beg for a bite. LOL!! That's not cruel. They're young and have enough energy to burn through Wii from dusk till dusk. You, on the other hand, need all the protein sustenance you can get your mitts on. They can come between you and your apple pie. But if you've had WLS & you're trying to keep your hair from falling out, NO ONE comes between you and your protein.

Besides if it turns out that the movie was worth the hype, rent it online or get it on iTunes. Oh well that's it for today. Tune in next time when we hear Jennifer say in her best 'Scarlet O'Hara' voice, "As g0d as my witness, I will submit my paperwork to my accountant to eFile my returns extra early to get a refund extra early. Hence, never go hungry again." Lol!

Ciao.