Kathy H.

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Today is day 8. Still not hungry, but I know I have to eat something. mostly thirsty. I'm having a really hard time getting my protein in. I'm supposed to get anywhere from 60-100 grams of protein in a day and I think I'm only getting in maybe 5. Anyone have any suggestions??...............still on liquids only so I've only been drinking like a bottle of water a day and maybe 1/2 to 3/4 of a vitamin water zero drink. I tried adding some of my protein powder to the bean juice I had been drinking and it's disgusting.....

I feel pretty good, have energy somewhat. At least bursts of it and then come down really fast. But it's something. It's the emotional stuff still...........I have little to no patience for my kids right now and everything makes me angry. Then again, I'm not usually home, I'm always working so not sure if it's just that or the lack of protein?? I can say that I do beleive that it does affect your mental clarity somewhat. I'm trying desparately to get in my protein......just not sure how without food. I don't want to vomit so I'm afraid to keep trying things. I have the protein powder, I have the Isopure which is awful. I haven't tried my protein shakes yet becuase they aren't clear so I'm afraid to try anything that's not clear yet. One of my friends said to try to stay on liquids as long as I can.

Anyone have any suggestions on how to get in my protein????????? HELP

Ok so today marks one whole week since my surgery. Seems like forever already. I swore to myself I won't touch the scale until I see the doctor so we can see what HIS scale says since his and mine don't always agree with eachother. I gotta say, getting my protein in is super hard. Near impossible for me. It's hard enough getting in my liquids (water). Not that I want to vomit or anything it's just you get so full that you just can't.

The good news is my incision from my JP tube (AKA drainage tube) looks better. Still have alot of trouble sleeping. Have had some incredible nightmares the last two nights, and I'm not one to EVER have bad dreams so it's been rough. I can't even blame it on any meds because I'm not on pain meds, just my vitamins and antacids and lovenox shots. Which by the way I can't wait to stop. I take them twice a day and you give them to yourself in the stomach. It doesn't hurt much, it's just the thought of it and actually giving it to yourself. YUCK!

I'm still not driving yet so my daughter takes me to the store or wherever I need to go. I try not to go out at all becuase the bumps in the road don't feel so good on your stomach. You really shouldn't be in a car anyway so I'm a bad example!!  But you get so stir crazy in the house.........UGH I just have to get out sometimes even if it's for a drive.

Today was a test!! my girls have been dying to go to Dennys to eat and so I let them take me and of course I can't eat yet so I packed a lunch bag with my vitamins, my vitamin water zero, ice water and bean juice which I've been basically living on. I must say it was HARD but I made it through just fine. It's amazing how strong you can be. It's a good feeling when you accomplish something as simple as sitting through a meal with someone without eating anything. Sound small but it's so not!!

Today, I'm going to actually try some sugar free jello. I'll let you know how that goes. Until next time.........

It's day 6 after surgery and I feel a million times better today. Still very emotional and sensitive but physically better. Mentally is going to be the challenging part. That's the good news. The other good news is I just had to get on the scale yesterday I don't know why but I was so tempted. Just needed some hope to pull me through and it said 251.5 that's 13.5 lbs in 5 days I lost!!!!!!!! now i don't know if it was the cleanse I had to do prior to surgery or the loose stool you have right after surgery for a few days or the just no food???? whatever it was, it was enough to get me through the day and give me some hope.
There is no turning back now, no time to ponder the regret you sometimes feel, just have to move forward and accept the changes and learn how to deal with them. Talking to people online has really helped me tremendously!! Amazing how a stranger can get you through and emotional time. Thank God!!!

Ther is some bad news......I changed the tape and gauze on my incision from the drainage tube I had and it's a little oozy with brown and yellowish stuff. Not much but the day before it almost looked scabed up and healed. But my kids had me laughing all day which about killed me because as most of you know that have had this or a c section, you CANNOT laugh without pain after this type of surgery.............So I don't know if I opened it or it's just infected or what. I'll probably call the doctor today becuase my appointment isn't for another week. Not sure if I should just give it a day to heal and wait it out or call. The incision is so small, about the size of the width of your fingernail...but still...it was a LONG tube inside me.

Other than tha, feeling pretty good today, washing a load of laundry, made breakfast for the kids, lunch for my husband and cleaned a little. Amazing how exhausted you get so fast. I actually put makeup on today!! and straightened my hair. Took me about an hour because I kept getting so tired, I had to stop. But if I sit around in my pajamas one more day I might go nuts!!!.............If I look better maybe I'll feel better.

Well, thanks for all your support and posts to my blogs you guys are great!! Any advice or just comments are always welcome!
kathy

It's June 28th and 5 days after surgery. I've been home two days now. Today is the first day I feel somewhat ok. I want to get up and do things not just sit around. I've had a headache though for about a week and nothing seems to make it go away. I dont' need the pain meds I was sent home with so I don't take that but in the hospital they gave me the morphine on a pump and liquid vicodine to try to get my headache to go away but it never did. It's barable but I'd love for it to go away. I find my self trying to do to much and getting dizzy so I have to remind myself to slow down and to keep sipping something. That's been really hard for me. I want to just drink and knowing I can't is really bothering me emotionally. Trying my hardest to keep strong and find the motivation I need to get through these next few weeks. Normally I'm the one cheering people on and trying to motivate people so for me to be on that other end feels awful and it makes me feel week and kinda worthless. I know those are all not true and ridiculous but the mind games you go through after surgery are amazing and exhausting and make you feel alot of different emotions all at once.
Yesterday seemed like the longest day ever.......I'm hoping today will go by faster. Trying to keep busy......and stay postitive.

Well, it's three days after surgery and I'm really sore and bruised up all over from all the poking. Happy to be home but a little scared. Pulled out all my material on what to eat and how to handle this first two weeks and still seem confused. I had my surgery on Wednesday, June 23rd at 1pm so it's only been three days so technically I think I'm supposed to be on just clear liquids right now which is water, Isopure high protein juice supplement drink and clear broths. I tried the broth and didn't care for it much. Mostly just eating ice chips. Started my Lovenox shots myslef too. Those aren't as bad as the Heprin I was getting in the hospital. Walkings not bad only if I laugh or cough. I came home with a throat infection I think so I'm coughing here and there and have to hang onto my stomache like a baby when I cough.
I thought the urge to eat or the smell of food cooking wouldn't even phase me after surgery but everything smells delicious and I want to eat. Not so much becuase I'm hungry becuase I don't think I am.......but I'm not sure?? I haven't eaten since Monday night around 8pm........but I feel like tasting things. I wo't of course because I'm so afraid too!! I'm not messing with this surgery. I went through to much to be here and screw everything up!!!
If anyone has any advice on how to make it through this first week and what they ate their first and second week that would be most helpfull. Still feeling like maybe I shouldn't have done this but it's to late now so I have to figure out how to make this work. Feeling really alone and scared still and my support groups for my surgeon are a two hour drive for me so I won't be making those. I really need some online people and maybe a closer meeting. Gonna start looking

Getting ready to leave. I'm very emotional today. My kids are scared and I am too. Just trying not to show it. Want to cry for no reason....Just want it over already and to come home. I have a long road ahead of me.......have to check in at 11, surgery at 1pm then 1 1/2 to 2 hours of surgery then recovery. Not sure how long you recover for but I know they get you up fast I hear. My stay will be anywhere from 2 to 5 days depending how I'm tolerating liquids. Deep breath..........
I'll post more when I return. Till then........I'll take all the prayers and support I can get!!!
Thanks!! kathy

It's the day before my surgery and I'm scared, nervous, numb, excited and depressed all at the same time. I don't really have anyone to share this experience with. I mean my family knows, but not all my extended family. I didn't share it with anyone. In a way I am ashamed and embarrased. My neighbor had the surgery and was my support for a short time, but she recently moved and she hasn't kept in contact with me. I have shared it with friends at work and they've been very supportive. But I think I need to meet people that are going through it with me to bounce my feelings off of and hear about how their coping. Hopefully on obesity.com I will find that support I need.